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2020.07.29 03:13 sauce_k1ng I [20M] messed up an LDR with an amazing girl [18F]
I will say now that this is a long read. I split it up into 3 labeled parts: part 1 focuses on the backstory, part 2 focuses on some self-reflection of our relationship, part 3 focuses on where I am now. My thoughts are very jumbled but.....If you actually take the time to read through all of it, I would appreciate any advice or opinions you have.
Part 1: Backstory
A year and a half ago, I met this girl over xbox that I really didn't think much of. We had played for like a week and then never really talked again until 7 months later when she invited me to her xbox party and we started playing regularly together. After a few months of flirting we had become pretty close. We knew a lot about each other and even though we both were pretty obvious with the flirting neither of us admitted it. For context she was 18/f and in highschool and I was 20/m and a third year college student. She lived in New York and I live in Indiana. My family has more money than hers (not that that was important in any way but...) and she has a really complicated family dynamic due to her divorced parents. At this point we snapchatted each other daily, multiple times a day and she had confided some really deep and personal trauma that she had been through to me.... in other words, we were incredibly close with each other.
After a few more months, she casually mentioned to me that she was going out with friends and that a younger highschool boy kept asking her out. She was not interested in the younger guy at all but the topic of her dating made me incredibly insecure and eventually I confessed my love for her. It was the most amazing thing in my life because she felt the same way and it felt like I was living a movie love story. She was really skeptical about the idea of dating because of the distance and after a few more weeks of convincing her, I got her to reject a guy in her hometown who had been trying to start a relationship with her for months as well. A month later, it took a lot of convincing but she agreed to let me drive up to New York (25 hr roundtrip) and visit her for a week. (This was just before coronavirus had become a big thing). Believe me when I tell you that it was the best trip of my life. She was fully and completely in love with me and I was even more so in love with her. I'll admit that she was my first everything...first kiss, first girl I ever saw naked, first girl I....touched. We never had sex because she wasn't ready and honestly neither was I despite me instigating it multiple times.
Unfortunately my mother was so pissed off about me driving up there that she literally flew to NY and begged me to leave early. I hated seeing my mother like that so I cut my trip short...something I regret incredibly. Because coronavirus had shut down both our schools, we played xbox with each other nearly daily for hours on end. We would video call when we were doing homework and would chat whenever we had the chance. The problem was that we would also argue a lot. She never realized how insecure I was because of the fact that I knew a lot of guys in her town wanted to sleep with her (whether she realized it or not) and sometimes she would take hours to respond to my messages and other stuff that isn't worth mentioning. I loved this girl with all my heart (and still do) but I was realizing that the frequency of our fights were taking a toll on her. She suffers from anxiety and would often be drained anytime we had a simple disagreement. I was also guilty of being manipulative on multiple occasions because she would often try to slow things down and just go back to being close friends but I would convince her that we would always be able to overcome any obstacles if we just worked together. Believe me when I say I would give up my life for this girl... she is like nothing words could describe. Despite her depression and anxiety, she somehow was the most bubbly, hilarious, beautiful, and genuinely unique human being I could ever imagine. She had a child like spirit that made me fall so deeply in love that I couldnt imagine ever letting her go.
One day, my mother had found out that my girlfriend had been sending me nudes when my dumbass friend brought it up on accident while my mom was in the room, and my mom fell into a severe depression. A day later I called my girlfriend (who I never mentioned this incident to) and she out of nowhere dropped a bomb on me and asked me why we were still in a relationship. I was in emotional turmoil from the nudes situation and this just felt like the final shot to my head. I had defended my girlfriend from the judgement of my family for months just for her to drop that on me. I won't lie, I reacted badly but she refused to even let me talk to her because she no longer wanted to hear my pleading or manipulation to stay with me. She then blocked me on snapchat, instagram, facebook, xbox, my phone number...everything except discord. A week after the breakup, I asked her why she was being so hard on me when she knew I only ever wanted to be the reason that her smile never left her face. She then blocked me on discord after I had pushed my luck.
At this point, her birthday was coming up and I had already bought her birthday presents prior to our breakup. I know I sound crazy but the day before her birthday, I drove back up to NY to surprise her and wish her a happy brithday and graduation. Yes, I showed up to her house uninvited, I know thats psychotic, and I know that screams stalker behavior. But you simply don't understand how much this girl means to me. She was everthing I ever wanted out of life and more. I would give up everything I own to just have her in my life again. She was very upset to see me and asked me to leave the same day even though I hadnt slept for 40+ hours and had nowhere to stay. I wish my stupidity ended there. A month later I made a new facebook account and sent a message to her mother (who I had the feeling liked me and wished things had worked out) telling her that I still cared very much for her daughter and wanted to work things out. I offered to fly both my ex and her mother to Indiana to visit for a few days and maybe establish a friendship at the least..... she entertained the idea for a second but then I got left on read....by her mother. And my ex gf blocked that facebook account too even though I never messaged her directly.
And I'm not giving this girl any credit here because she was amazing to me in every way and I was in no way the perfect companion I'm not proud to admit. She did so much for me to make me happy that I took for granted. She would put my happiness before her own because of my insecurity and I never told her how much it all meant to me. She told her whole family about me (something that I hurt her by never fully doing myself), she wore a ring I gave her for months in front of her friends and family, she posted things about us on snapchat, which to me meant so much whether she realized it or not. It was weird having someone not be ashamed to know me for once in my life. She had the biggest heart and I only ever wanted to protect it from all the hell in her life.
Part 2: Self-reflection of our relationship
Before you all say it, please spare me. I know my behaviors are obsessive, I know what I did was wrong and manipulative and I know I sound like a grade A psychopath stalker. She was in love with me, but her depression and anxiety made her skeptical and my insecure behavior made her fall out of love. And I know that theres "other fish in the sea" and that I'm just naive because she was my first. But I would give up my life to make that girl smile. She is the most precious thing I have ever seen and I wish I could just hug her and take all of the hurt out of her life. I was stupid for being so pushy and desperate post-breakup because I know I was just scaring her more. There's a lot more to this story but the main points are here. A girl like that is once in a lifetime. She is worth everything to me. I'd wait years for her if thats what it took. I just wish she'd give me hope, something to hold on to. I love her so much, and I know thats an overwhelming thing to say but its true.
I don't even care for a relationship or anything at this point. I just wish we could go back to being at least xbox friends. She never realized that I was more afraid of being in the relationship than she ever was. I just acted like it was everything I wanted because I knew that if she knew how afraid I was, our combined doubt would ruin everything. I never told her this but I had recurring nightmares when we were still together because she was always the last thing on my mind before I went to bed each night and I would wake up in cold sweats with my heart beating at 100 mph from the sheer anxiety going through me. I may live in america but she never realized that my foreign upbringing made me fear the living hell out of commitment, and again I never told her that. I just pretended to be confident. I wish she would realize that despite my psycho behavior, the only thing I wanted was a casual relationship... someone to talk to. I never had that. Not as a child, not in highschool. Never. I never had friends come over to my house, I never spent the night at a friend's house, I never went to parties... It was all new to me. It was never as serious as I had scared her into believing it was.
To me, we were never in a relationship. It was just a label I pushed on us to maintain our exclusivity. But the word scared the living hell out of her probably as much as it scared me. Those times when she'd try to break things off and go back to being friends, it never made sense to me because I couldn't picture us acting any differently towards each other despite the change in title. And I wasn't pushing the title of relationship/exclusivity because I didn't trust her... it was because I knew exactly what the other guys in her life would try to do if it weren't there... she was oblivious (or at least acted like she was for my sake) to just how much guys fell for her playful and beautiful spirit. I always saw her more as the best friend I never had... the person I could tell anything to and know that it would stay between us. She was my best friend (whether she realized it or not) before we were ever anything else.
She finally broke it off when she needed time and space to work on herself and her mental health. And I won't lie, at the time when it happened, I had begun to act unattractively clingy and I don't blame her at all. I didn't even realize how lame I was being until I realized how often I called her or checked up on her without cause. But I still didn't know how I was standing in the way of that. If anything, I only ever wanted to be there to support her and watch her grow into the beautiful and strong woman that I knew she was. If she needed space, it was hers. If she needed time, it was hers. I only wanted to be there alongside her to be that one person in her life who didn't give up on her when she expected me to the most. I wanted to be the one she trusted and relied on for strength when she was feeling low.
I wanted to be the one to motivate her to do better in life because relationships are more than just falling in love... it's about inspiring each other to become better versions of ourselves. She was never big on religion but it plays a huge role in my life and I used to stay up for hours late at night praying to God that he would take all of her burdens and troubles and put them on my shoulders instead, because I knew that I could handle anything as long as she was by my side. She used to have this stupid wallpaper on her phone of this word "meliorism." It's the belief that the world gets better more or less. I used to tease her for the cheesiness of it until I realized that that message was what I was trying to get across to her for the longest time ever. The idea that the depression and anxiety would perhaps always be there, but would diminish and be pushed aside by the love of all of those around her who cared so deeply about her. I hope she never changed that wallpaper.
Instead of telling her those things, I smothered her. I f**ked up and smothered her with attention because for some reason I refused to listen to my brain telling me to lay off and give the girl a breather. She said she could no longer return my love given her anxiety and depression let alone all the stupid things going on in the world right now. And I completely understand that. I just wanted her to ask me to wait for her because she knew that I gladly would have without hesitation. I'm just indifferent at this point. I'm not sad, I'm not happy... I'm just indifferent. I don't want her pity, I don't want anyone's pity because I'm not sad anymore. I don't even want a relationship. All of my fears of being in one came true. I just don't want to be her enemy. Don't want to be another reason she doesn't trust men. I just want to talk to her, but she'd rather pretend that I never existed. It hurts. I'd give up my life for this girl and it f**king hurts. As much as I want to, I can't bring myself to be mad at that girl. I just want to go back to being xbox friends. I miss my best friend.
She doesn't realize that I still go out of my way to try and do what little things I can to make her happy. Even though she blocked me on xbox, I still get notifications of when she is online for some reason. I realized that after playing with her more or less exclusively for the last 6 months, she didn't really have other friends to play with other than the guys that were more my friends than hers. Whenever I get the notification that she's online, I purposefully stop playing with my friends or leave their party so that she can feel comfortable to join them and play with them without worrying that I'm there. I'd rather see her happy playing with my friends than see her just get off xbox or play by herself.
--------- This is where my thoughts get extra jumbled and don't flow cohesively ----------
***each remaining paragraph in part 2 is a separate thought that has little to do with the last
Loving a female that has never been loved the proper way takes a lot of patience. I was stupid and rushed things. She doesn't realize that the way the people around her mistreat her and largely disregard her own desires is not okay. She's never been properly loved and I screwed up my chance to make her realize that she's worthy of so much more.
Our arguments were always the worst because we'd have them over text most of the time and she was always reluctant to answer my calls whenever we butted heads. It would drive me insane because I only ever wanted to hear the emotion in her voice and let her hear the sincerity in mine. More importantly, I wanted to be able to hear when I had gone too hard and reached the point of making her cry. I was never worthy of her tears and it would leave a knot in my chest for hours when she'd tell me afterwards that I had brought her to tears. I always thought our arguments were good in the long run because they were an opportunity for us to learn more about each other but I was so wrong for not taking her anxiety into consideration and the toll it was taking on her health.
She was the goofiest, funniest, most one of a kind person I've ever met. Being a premed double major made my life stressful at times and she was always that breath of fresh air that I could come back to at the end of the day and play a couple of games with. Do you ever hear a song that just...gets you going? Makes you feel motivated like you can do anything? Gives you that kind of energy that makes you feel like you could pull anything off? She was that tune to me. No matter how sh*tty life got, she was always that vibe that made me think "damn, I have a lot to be thankful for."
I romanticized the relationship as though I was directing a romantic film and casted us as the main stars. I was trying to do too much too soon and ended up pressuring her rather than reassuring her. I remember her telling me that she wanted to move to New Orleans for college so that she could go clubbing and have fun and enjoy the people and food there. And I guess I had no right to overwhelm her like this, but I always wanted to be the one to give her those opportunities that I had that she perhaps might not have had... not because I pitied her or anything like that or thought that I was better than her or her family in any way, but because it genuinely made me happy to imagine making those memories with her.
I'm in college. Enjoying street/nightlife, going on road trips to cedar point and kings island with friends, going out to concerts in big cities... stuff like that is normal for people my age, and I guess it was kind of hard to realize on my part that it wasn't perhaps as normal for a high school girl to be doing those things and as a result, I ended up just overwhelming her whenever I mentioned stuff like that. To me, I was just offering to take my best friend out for a good time to make some good memories, but I guess I never stopped to think about what those things meant to her. I guess that's another way I scared her into thinking our relationship was more serious than it ever was. My old roommate got engaged just the other day. A friend from high school is having a kid. This kind of stuff is... normal I guess at my age so I never understood why me asking if I could drive out and see her before the summer ended (obviously when we were still together) was such a big deal to her. I say I never understood why she was so afraid by how serious our relationship was, but the more I think about it, it couldn't be more obvious.
Despite me reassuring her that this wasn't the case, she thought that I was crazy enough to pull an engagement ring out of my pocket at any minute, when that couldn't be further from what I wanted. I live with my parents for f*cks sake, I'm still in college and am no where near reaching a point where I'd be financially able to support her let alone afford a ring in the first place. I never wanted to think about that kind of stuff because I was just happy with having someone there alongside me who cared about me. Of course I had every intention of doing those things one day but never any time in the near future. I can't imagine all of the anxiety I put through that precious girl's head.
For some unexplainable reason, I thought I knew what was best for her and would push my will onto her without really thinking about how my actions were taking a toll on her. I was beyond stupid and selfish and to think she stayed with me for as long as she did is a testament to how forgiving this girl's heart was. She probably doesn't remember but she actually told me once after I had made an unforgivable mistake that broke her trust (no, it had nothing to do with infidelity) that the major reason her mind was telling her to look past the incident was because she knew the true intentions of my heart.
She never knew this but she was a huge reason that I lost a lot of weight and was motivated to improve my appearance. The prospect of potentially meeting her in person (though it was highly unlikely at the time I made this decision) had motivated me to lose 20 pounds in the span of two months leading up to the first time I visited her irl. She had shown me pics of military dudes who'd flirt with her and I knew I had to get my sh*t together if I wanted to give her the best version of myself. I was embarrassed to admit it but it was a big reason why I pressured her so hard into letting me visit her that soon despite her reluctance... I was afraid I wouldn't be able to keep the weight off and I didn't want to disappoint her (surprisingly enough I have tho).
Believe me when I say that I know this girl never owed me anything. I never believed that for even a second or ever wanted her to think that because I know my gestures (driving up there or money-wise) made her incredibly uncomfortable. I spent over $3,500 on her over the course of 3 months (only $700 was actually on her but the other 2.8k was on gas, a hotel, traffic tickets, and car repairs resulting from the long drives). And to be perfectly honest, I'd do it all again (minus the traffic tickets ofc and the whole showing up uninvited...yea) because I like the thought of imagining the smile on her face when she got flowers delivered to her house or recognized the thought behind a gift that I was giving her in person.
I mean no disrespect whatsoever when I say this because I know my family is lucky to be better off financially than others, but when I went to visit her the second time on her birthday, I spent the better part of an hour talking to her mother on the porch while girly was still sleeping and she told me that she was just going to give her daughter money for her 18th birthday. I could be completely wrong and most probably am but it made me feel bad inside to think that her own mother hadn't even put a little effort into making her 18th birthday a bigger deal than they had. And I don't mean that in a monetary kind of way (I've never had a birthday party or any of that jazz) but it made me feel bad that this precious girl whose senior year and graduation had largely gone to sh*t because of corona wasn't getting more attention for her milestone. I'm not going to pretend like the sh*tty gifts I got her were that great or anything but I had certainly had put a lot of time trying to come up with something more personalized/sentimental for her. Not to mention the fact that her half-brother who is half her age had been given four-wheelers in the past for his birthday and her own father never gave her one that was supposed to be hers....this was something she had been really upset about not even a month prior when we were still talking.
I always playfully annoyed her with my "do as I say but not as I do" mentality (I'm studying medicine even though my interest is in architecture) whenever I would encourage her to pursue her interests instead of worrying too much about college. As an arab, I kind of have that chauvinistic view built into me that I would be the sole provider for my family (hence why I chose medicine) and that my partner wouldn't really have to worry about college or work unless they wanted to. I always wanted her to go to college and have a backup plan of course, but more so I really wanted her to have the freedom to explore her talents and attempt a less conventional career as an artist (which she definitely has the talent for) or a twitch streamer (which she has all of the charisma for) with the confidence that she would always have my support, both mentally and financially, to pursue such a career. The last time I spoke to her in person, she also told me about her passion to become an actress but didn't have the resources to pursue such a path.
(I had actually spent time following my second visit looking for scholarships and programs in schools near her area where she could attend acting classes or theater programs in the fall if she so desired and made a list of them in what would have been the second letter that I had written to her following my second visit to NY where things greatly went to sh*t. While messaging her for the last time before she finally blocked me for good, she had said that she "didn't give a f*ck about my [first] letter"... so I intercepted the second one before it got delivered and she never knew about any of it.)
I had spent literal hours on websites prior to her birthday (and our breakup) trying to find decently priced gaming chairs, mics, LEDs, webcams, etc in her favorite colors for her so that I could show her my support and encouragement to pursue those interests. The delivery delay due to corona was the only thing holding me back from okaying some of those purchases... but I guess it was probably for the better.
I hate the way I've talked about her throughout this post as though her life was just this hole of despair where she was just waiting on someone to come in and make it all better. That's not the case at all nor did I ever have that mindset at any point during our relationship. If anything, my own ego is what drove me to sort of assume that role subconsciously. And I know a lot of the times it sounds like I was trying to "buy her love." Also not the case. I feel good inside when I can spend my money on other people and nothing made me feel better than spending money on her.
I didn't exactly make my own healing process any easier. Anytime I open my photo album on my phone, I see a picture of her staring back at me and I can't help but start scrolling through the hundreds of them that I have on there. Pictures of her beautiful face, screenshots of some of the adorable things she would say in the middle of our conversations, goofy videos of her dancing while drinking chocolate milk...it's hard to let go of those memories that had made me happy for so long.
Part 3: Where I am now
I just feel weird now, I guess. I'm not really sad but just disappointed with the lasting impression I left on her. I don't think she realizes that it's not as serious as I made it seem. I acted desperate, needy, lost without her. Of course I was depressed that I was losing my best friend, but I definitely overexaggerated how I was feeling. I had begun to rely on her for happiness and I never really realized until she was no longer a part of my life. And for some reason, I would convince myself that it was the end of the world leading me to do the stupid things I did (i.e. pestering her nonstop when she needed space, going to NY uninvited, messaging her mother, etc.).
I know I'll be fine and that everything will be okay after a little time has passed and I get busy with school again, but unfortunately I can't take back those stupid mistakes I made. I have no idea what the hell I was thinking immediately after we had just broke up... why I kept messaging her, why I still didn't just f*ck off and give her a little space, why I thought I had a bomb strapped to my chest and had to fix things with her as soon as humanly possible. Just thinking about the sheer psychoticism of the things I did makes me ashamed for scaring the living hell out of that precious girl. I'm honestly glad she blocked me... I needed it to help get her off my mind. Of course I still miss my best friend and wish she'd reach out but I doubt she'll ever care enough about me to do so at this point, which is thoroughly justified.
I'm embarrassed to look back and think of all the pathetic things I did over the last two months. I'm done being that person. I'm done being immature. If only I had got my sh*t together sooner rather than later and acted like a man that she would be proud of being around. As someone that both my family and close friends rely on heavily more mental strength, I feel disgusted with myself for letting them down and showing them this ugly, defeated side of myself.
I still think about her from time to time when something sparks an old memory, still have some of my old nightmares on bad days, but that beautiful girl never owed me anything. I still hope deep down that she'll reach out one day and be my gaming friend like before, but I guess that's completely up to her. I'm just glad that I've reached the point where I can look back on what I've done and realize how incredibly stupid and immature I was acting. I feel bad for what I did to that poor girl... hopefully she has already reached a similar point where she can look back and realize that it was never as serious or intense or even scary as I had made it all seem. I'm sure she has. She was always stronger than me in that way.
Despite her hatred for me, I know she knows that I'd never do any of that psycho stuff again... never drive back up to NY, never make stupid comments like "I'd rather die than not be with you," never overwhelm her with words like "I love you", none of that dumb sh*t. I was naive and I'm past that. But that doesn't change the fact that I still miss talking to her while playing my favorite games after a long day.
I really don't know what came over me to write this all here, but it kind of feels good I guess. It's probably best that she focuses on her first year of college and I focus on my last. With classes being online due to covid, I'm sure we'll both have more free time than we know what to do with. If she ever changed her mind, and I know she won't, she knows how to contact me. If you've actually kept reading to this point, thank you for coming to my TedTalk.
If you asked me how many times she has crossed my mind, I'd say only once, because she never really left.
**TL;DR; : I [20M] messed up a long distance relationship with an amazing girl [18F]. Don't be me.
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I don't know why I picked up today to tell this story, it's been a while since I've been thinking about it though. Today I'm a 24yo man, I'm generally happy with my life and I think I know myself very well, but from times to times the shit that happened years ago resurfaces to haunt me. I also feel like online abuse is not often talked about on reddit, perhaps because it's not viewed as being as impactful as physical abuse.
When I was around 10 I joined an online forum to talk about a passion of mine. I was promptly welcomed by the most active members of the forum, including Pedo1 (age ~35). He started chatting with me in private the very day I joined, and offerred to send me gifts and such. It was great to have a lot of friends so suddenly ! The guy even called me "little brother" and shit. How cute.
I'd say from an adult perspective the nature of Pedo1 was pretty clear from the start, he asked about sexually related topics, if I masturbated and also gave me the addresses of porn sites. Because I thought that was normal to talk about such things, I talked about my sex drive with other members of the forum. This will be important later.
One day he introduces me to his "cousin" who is coincidently a girl of my age, I chat with "her" and we start "dating online". Strangely enough I always showed myself on webcam but "she" never did. One day she asked if I could show my genitals on the cam. I'm not sure if I did it once or multiple times but I know it didn't feel right at the time. "She" showed me hers through her avatar picture, which I thought was strange, why didn't she just send it to me ? And why through her avatar, like all your contacts can see it, no ?
In the mean time the life on the forum goes on, one time we meet IRL with other members, as I'm young I'm with my mother and Pedo1 hosts us. He shows me some porn vids, nothing unexpected from him considering the discussions we've had.
At some point I ask to "the cousin" of Pedo1 if we can phone each others because I find it really strange at this point. Nobody calls, as expected. "She" later sent a mail to say that her parents promptly made their family relocate for some reason (seriously ? that's the best excuse you could come up with, you shitbag ?). I knew all this was bullshit so I stopped talking to Pedo1. He later sent a mail saying he missed me, coincidently once again his "cousin" mails me something similar from the very same IP address, which is the one from his work.
Well I'm not entirely sure why, I guess I missed the forum and all that (home was a shitshow so this was a good escape), and came back at some point. We invited Pedo1 to come spend a few days at home once. I guess it's around that time that Pedo2 (age ~50) joined the forum. He had quite a strange personnality and didn't really share the passion the forum was about so people didn't like him much, but I became friend with him. One time he invited people from the forum to his home, nobody came except Pedo1 and me (my mom trusted him at this point, I think I was 12 or 13). Fortunately for me, they didn't do anything to me but both acted weird as fuck (mostly Pedo1), being extra gentle with me. Very creepy few days. I talked about the story of Pedo1 to Pedo2 and he made me accept what happened, so going back home with Pedo1 was very weird at this point.
After Pedo2 talked about it to the admin and some of the more active members of the forum. Since Pedo1 was an important and beloved member of the community, and since Pedo2 was not liked much and I was a weird teenager talking about my sex drive to other members, they more or less came to the conclusion that I made up the fucking story and decided to ban Pedo1 and 2, and me.
I continued to chat a lot with Pedo2, just like Pedo1 he talked about a lot of sexual stuff, wanted to know when I masturbated and he masturbated as well at the same time. Even said shit like "oh you didn't wait for me ?", he always wanted to chat late til the very minute before I went to sleep. He even wrote fucked up fictions telling the story of boys masturbating together, thinking about their middle school teacher. He was generally very manipulative, I hated being controlled like that but didn't want to deceive him. One time we went to his home with my mom and while she was asleep, I was playing video games in his living room and he was trying to force me to give me a foot massage. After I repeatedly say "no" he finally stopped, probably fearing that I would wake my mother up if he went on. That's the only occurence of physical contact he made with me, and that's already too much. I remember him breathing deeply and having a lewd look in his eyes.
When I was 14 I started being fed up with his shit and decided not to reply to him. He tried to phone to my house but my mom usually told him I wasn't available (I didn't really explained what happened to her). He tried to make contact by mail a few years back but that's it. Never heard about him or Pedo1 since then.
Well that's the end. I hope at least one person will read it entirely, as expected I indeed lost myself into details. That's a story about adults being immature, stupid, abusive. People who never got their shit figured out, neither the pedos nor my parents who failed me. My father who was the only one who had a working internet connection at the time and never monitored any of the shit I was doing, or tried to tell me to be careful. And my mother who's been so freaking oblivious to all what was happening right before her eyes. Like, seriously ?
Pedo1 and Pedo2 are pieces of shit of human garbage. I think I was not the only one to be abused by them. As far as I know they're still completely free and now that I think I am strong enough I'd like to do something about it. I don't know if Pedo2 did anything illegal, but Pedo1 certainly did and I'd bet he recorded everything and still got it on his computer. I don't know where to begin though, I don't want to involve my family in it.
Anyway, thanks for reading, if you went through the whole story.
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With regard to prep, I studied for about 5 weeks and the main resources I used were the ETS and Magoosh books, the Mcgraw Hill 8 test book, Greg Mat's YT channel, and the ETS website. I used the official ETS book as a guidebook/textbook, mostly to revise math. For vocabulary, I went through a Quizlet compilation of about 27 vocabulary lists by Greg Mat that I found while scrolling through this sub, supplemented by hunting through the Magoosh book for words. I made a list of difficult words that I didn't know and went through them again on the morning of the test. For practice, I did the exercises and most of the practice tests in all three books mentioned above, as well as the two free tests on the ETS website. For AW, I watched Greg Mat's walkthrough videos for both essay types and then used the ETS ScoreItNow service to review 4 practice essays in the last couple of days. I gave another exam earlier this year which was heavily essay-based, so I was already in the mindset of speedy reading, creating an outline, and fast writing.
I've lurked here on occasion while preparing for the test and if not for this sub, I wouldn't have learned about GregMat or found an accessible 800 words-list which helped me to polish my vocabulary. So, here's to hoping that this proves helpful to others on this sub and that I can help pay it forward.
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As always, please clear your browser cache in OBS and in your browser if there are problems. This version is not backwards compatible. If problems persist, the previous version can be found at https://obs.ninja/v7
The focus on Version 8 was on UI/UX improvements, bug fixes, and adding some simple feature request.
For reference and details, all the available advanced URL parameters can be found on the updated wiki page: https://github.com/steveseguin/obsninja/wiki/Advanced-Settings