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2018.03.18 19:25 S_T_R_O_N_G_2 Live sex pirn

Oh wow, you guys banned my account because you seriously thought I was a troll. I don't give a fuck, I'm posting this because it could be beneficial to those who could use this experience for themselves. And I'm back because I want to give back the community. Take it with a grain of salt.
Wow guys. There is no need to even explain that I'm worn out right now and that this won't be as pleasant to read as it could have been if I was on day 5+.
I posted about doing the 10th day reboot and people thought I was trolling. I'm not and I'm glad I did this voluntary relapse. And believe me, I did it for the right reason.
I didn't relapse for pleasure, I relapsed for pain. Fear. And hate.
I relapsed for all of this and I am glad I did. The last 10 days were very changing. In a way I lived in them more than I have in the last 12 years. I changed from within, from the bottom of my heart. I accepted the truth and was rewarded with LOVE.
That LOVE is still here with me. It's deep inside me, and even though it's weaker due to my relapse I am still feeling it.
Here is the report. Between day 8/9 I edged a bit to some pirn, but didn't orgasm. Some cum did come out but more like leak not full ejaculation. At the evening and morning. I didn't do it because of weakness but strength. I had the idea to look at porn and not let it have power over me. It worked very good. I can now control my erection. There was a loss of benefits due to this but not so much, sadly sexy voice is gone. The LOVE was present and strong.
THE MENTAL STRENGTH HAD REMAINED WITHIN ME BUT NOT THE PHYSICAL.
1st fap.
I fapped to amateur couple having very passionate sex. But this time instead of just fapping to the girls body I looked at all her movements and reactions and it was amazing. I didn't see her as a sex object but a human being just enjoying being human with another human. My load was not as big as expected but I think that's easily explained.
Before the fap I felt the strength and benefits. I entered it mentally prepared. I got high as fuck, way too high I rolled a very big one. So I spent nearly 30 minutes looking at me in the mirror feeling great and proud of myself. Not related to the fap, just being proud of myself. My body and subconscious didn't want me to fap.But I had to do it. I had to return again to fear and pain. I had to live within them again. But this time it was because I had the choice. I've always had it but this time I was FREE. And I chose it to show to myself it is powerless.
After the orgasm I immediately felt a part of the presence leave. A tension and tiredness in my shoulders and back came. I felt weaker but I looked inside of me and felt the LOVE. I went to the mirror and looked at myself. The eyes were different, they looked a bit dead.
I said no. I looked and harvested all the power love and strength in me and focused it. The fire and spark in my eye was back. It was weaker. And it was not looking pure anymore, it was tainted. But it was there, and before those 10 days it was never there. Now it was still inside me.
I felt my subconsciousness was not happy with me. But it still knew I did this for the right reason. This is why it was still with me.
2nd fap Fapped again to this amateur couple and then to some perfect virile latina. Not much to say.
The before after was like the first fap. Strength and power was still there. The PMO only had a physical effect on me. The psychological part was still there. I still had the fire. My eyes were more dead but still fire inside. Not as dead as always which was fully.
3rd fap
I fapped to girls in loubutins and some chubby chick because I wanted to feel low and a bit disgusted maybe. I wanted to feel cheap. I wanted to destroy myself so I could show myself I am strong enough to accept that. I sinked my own ship, because I chose. I am no longer a slave. I am a man.
The before after. I felt obviously really exhausted and dead. Looked in mirror eyes dead.
Almost immediately after finishing the last self masterbation of my life I turned the shower to max cold. I was scared, I had fear. Because I had given power to the fear. The 3rd orgasm left me weak. But the mental power and LOVE were stronger. I was not going to give any power to fear and hate and I never will again.
I jumped straight in. Damn it was cold. Almost immediately I start to hyperventilate. But instead of only trying to control my breathing I also looked very deep for the LOVE. The shock from the cold to my body helped me harvest my power and strength, but the real reason I found the LOVE and it helped me was because I gave power to the LOVE. My LOVE was stronger than my fear and strength because I believed it, and it was the truth.
I went to the mirror.
While tainted the look in my eyes was alive. For the first time in ever.
Throughout the three parts I always looked and the porn and didn't give it any power until I was soft.
I will write part 2 in 3 days with new details. Tons of details left out but you probably don't even care to try and accept something new and good. You need the right mindset and a very strong mind to do it. People under 10 days try the challenge.
There's so much more to add. But only if you're interested.
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2018.03.18 03:53 Power_Of_L0VE Live sex pirn

Wow guys. There is no need to even explain that I'm worn out right now and that this won't be as pleasant to read as it could have been if I was on day 5+.
I posted about doing the 10th day reboot and people thought I was trolling. I'm not and I'm glad I did this voluntary relapse. And believe me, I did it for the right reason.
I didn't relapse for pleasure, I relapsed for pain. Fear. And hate.
I relapsed for all of this and I am glad I did. The last 10 days were very changing. In a way I lived in them more than I have in the last 12 years. I changed from within, from the bottom of my heart. I accepted the truth and was rewarded with LOVE.
That LOVE is still here with me. It's deep inside me, and even though it's weaker due to my relapse I am still feeling it.
Here is the report. Between day 8/9 I edged a bit to some pirn, but didn't orgasm. Some cum did come out but more like leak not full ejaculation. At the evening and morning. I didn't do it because of weakness but strength. I had the idea to look at porn and not let it have power over me. It worked very good. I can now control my erection. There was a loss of benefits due to this but not so much, sadly sexy voice is gone. The LOVE was present and strong.
THE MENTAL STRENGTH HAD REMAINED WITHIN ME BUT NOT THE PHYSICAL.
1st fap.
I fapped to amateur couple having very passionate sex. But this time instead of just fapping to the girls body I looked at all her movements and reactions and it was amazing. I didn't see her as a sex object but a human being just enjoying being human with another human. My load was not as big as expected but I think that's easily explained.
Before the fap I felt the strength and benefits. I entered it mentally prepared. I got high as fuck, way too high I rolled a very big one. So I spent nearly 30 minutes looking at me in the mirror feeling great and proud of myself. Not related to the fap, just being proud of myself. My body and subconscious didn't want me to fap.But I had to do it. I had to return again to fear and pain. I had to live within them again. But this time it was because I had the choice. I've always had it but this time I was FREE. And I chose it to show to myself it is powerless.
After the orgasm I immediately felt a part of the presence leave. A tension and tiredness in my shoulders and back came. I felt weaker but I looked inside of me and felt the LOVE. I went to the mirror and looked at myself. The eyes were different, they looked a bit dead.
I said no. I looked and harvested all the power love and strength in me and focused it. The fire and spark in my eye was back. It was weaker. And it was not looking pure anymore, it was tainted. But it was there, and before those 10 days it was never there. Now it was still inside me.
I felt my subconsciousness was not happy with me. But it still knew I did this for the right reason. This is why it was still with me.
2nd fap Fapped again to this amateur couple and then to some perfect virile latina. Not much to say.
The before after was like the first fap. Strength and power was still there. The PMO only had a physical effect on me. The psychological part was still there. I still had the fire. My eyes were more dead but still fire inside. Not as dead as always which was fully.
3rd fap
I fapped to girls in loubutins and some chubby chick because I wanted to feel low and a bit disgusted maybe. I wanted to feel cheap. I wanted to destroy myself so I could show myself I am strong enough to accept that. I sinked my own ship, because I chose. I am no longer a slave. I am a man.
The before after. I felt obviously really exhausted and dead. Looked in mirror eyes dead.
Almost immediately after finishing the last self masterbation of my life I turned the shower to max cold. I was scared, I had fear. Because I had given power to the fear. The 3rd orgasm left me weak. But the mental power and LOVE were stronger. I was not going to give any power to fear and hate and I never will again.
I jumped straight in. Damn it was cold. Almost immediately I start to hyperventilate. But instead of only trying to control my breathing I also looked very deep for the LOVE. The shock from the cold to my body helped me harvest my power and strength, but the real reason I found the LOVE and it helped me was because I gave power to the LOVE. My LOVE was stronger than my fear and strength because I believed it, and it was the truth.
I went to the mirror.
While tainted the look in my eyes was alive. For the first time in ever.
Throughout the three parts I always looked and the porn and didn't give it any power until I was soft.
I will write part 2 in 3 days with new details. Tons of details left out but you probably don't even care to try and accept something new and good. You need the right mindset and a very strong mind to do it. People under 10 days try the challenge.
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2015.10.21 16:26 Hud_level [LTR] Does any of this shit work if she's depressed?

29, 4 years with my lady, 3 of them cohabitating. As I get closer to wanting to get married, I can't stop thinking that I need to jump ship.
I've always had a generally red pill mentality, I've read TRP & MRP for months for advice, and today am reading AskMRP's sidebar when it occurs to me: maybe none of this shit is working because it just doesn't apply.
I have frame. I am the captain. I am the masculine figure in her life, and she shows me her devotion almost all the time. She tells me she would do anything for me, often expresses that she worships me. Also: cooking, cleaning, she sews and fixes my clothes, she's very handy and often engaged in little projects to fix up our house, etc. The sex in the beginning was great, it still can be good (at least it was once, three months ago) lately it has been in the dumpster; she promises she wants to do better but is just too depressed right now. Honesty: i've been compensating with daily pirn.
Sex issue aside, and that is a huge problem but nonetheless I have no desire to jump ship. She is the greatest woman I've been with, I trust her 95%, she has never violated her loyalty to me.
But she was diagnosed depressed as a teen and has been on antidepressants for like 10 years. No matter how good I can get her to feel, or how good our life is going at any given moment, she is prone to fall into deep depression.
I personally think the 'depression' is just a defensive mechanism. Whenever I encourage her to get active or cheer up, she accuses me of not believing her depression is real, says its a disease, she can't help it, and this is the way she is. Symptoms: watching television for hours, being miserable, zero libido, whining self-pity, bitching over nothing.
GF knows I'm deeply concerned about the long term effects of the drugs on her brain, so 'she' decided to reduce her dosage by half. It made her feel a bit off at first, but she has since totally adjusted.
To come back to MRP, despite all the positives above, here is what I don't trust: I don't trust her long-term to be a positive, stable presence in my life or in the lives of the children I would like to have. She is my ideal wife when she's doing well, but when she's a depressed basket case, I am pretty much terrified of being trapped with her.
I am applying more and more RP to my life every day, esp. with the lifting. You guys are so fucking right about that -- you need to fucking lift. But it hasn't changed the frequency of her depressive periods. I am coming to doubt RP strategy could really help mold her into the woman I want, because I just don't see what I've applied in recent months changing this core problem.
To clarify, I don't want to break up. I don't want to cheat. I don't believe I could find another woman who fits my personality so perfectly. But I can't see us getting married in current conditions.
TL;DR: I have seen RP make her more responsive, more helpful, more obedient, more loyal as a partner, but I can't get her to drop the never-ending pessimism, have a normal libido or be the stable person I can trust with my future family.
Looking for thoughts and advice. Thanks
Edit: Really taken aback by the depth of insight this sub has given me, and very grateful. Rather than thanking everyone, just saying thank you right here. I knew posting this I was exposing areas of thinking that were defective, but had to seek input from others to understand where the defects were.
At this point still processing all of your comments so I don't a coherent response, just definitely planning to do more reading from the sidebar, lifting and taking action to get me out of this mess.
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2015.05.10 11:56 StoneDwarf Live pirn sex

granted its a small bottle. 300ml. anyway some of this stuff might be triggering but im too drunk to figure out how to do trigger text sorry.
ANd while i will probablyw ake up in the morinign and regret this, I feel i should just do some stream of consciousness right now. but while drunk, there are no inhibitions. period. I remember one time i had feelings for a girl, and I know i bottled them up inside myself, and then I got drunk one night and I told myself that holy shit I do love her for who she is. I was with said girl for 2 years or so.
i think, mostly, due to battling feelings of loneliness. mostly because im an intovert. by nature. i know im at this point of my life where i have confidence bordering on quiet fucking arrogance where sometimes people see me and they think "god dayum this guy gets laid every day" when the truth is i would just go to work, put in the minimum, zone the f out to vidjamagames and porn, and go to bed. i fucking remember telling people in college "man im sorry i need to go study for school" and then iwould go and jusy play S.T.A.L.K.E.R. Shadow of Chernobyl (great motherfucking game, by the way) for like 4-6 hours until i was dead tired. And then I would PMO to help me sleep. And then I would just sleep.
My best semester in college was when I filled up all of my free time with activities, determined I needed to cut back on a thing, and cut back on sleep. Still I PMO'd. but i was doing shit man. porn isn't the issue, per se. not doing jack shit with your life is. Not defednign pirn at all ok? its bad. dont do it. not saing that just becuase its nofap. ive literally used it to hide feelings of insecurity and loneliness because fuck effort.
but yanno what? lac of effort as gotten me these things 1) college drop out 2) mediocre job. dun get me wrong. i love what i do. but it doesn't pay well. even at 10.85. it doesnt pay well because i live in a high cost of living area and also because ify oure unloading trucks every day you need to eat well. much more well than somoneone who just helps customers or whatever. 3) loneliness. I dont know how mant opportunities ive missed to have sex or have relationships because i can "just go look at porn lmfao haha". 4) i mean liek. what the fuck? i remember flirting with a chick who was a perfect 10 and she rejected me and yet this other dude flirted with her in the same way and she was "cool, dude". and then i just went to porn and was like "wgt do i even need this perfect girl porn never rejects me!!!aaa" i was like 15 at the time.
i wish i could have connected the dots sooner. a lot sooner. in college sooner. i took this girl up to my room once in college to show her some cs shit i had done (mastermind is da bomb yo. i programmed it once). i missed the subtext of some non-nerdy girl saying "yeah. i'd like to see the programs you work with" as an "i want to fuck." anyway i fucked up my code and she was like "what do you want to do?" and I was like "I have no idea." again muissin the fucking subtext of "can we have sex yet??????" because you just cannot say that in polite society.
also i think society is kind of just fucked up in general. i will never be a red piller. I refuse to go down that road to get the things I want in my life because i am a utilitarian and I ultimately see manipulating women as unethical. But I completely understand why some men end up doing this.
um i have to pee. fuck.
um i wish i could jerk off right now because being drunk + porn is actually prettu good.
but i mean, and i suspect its been this way for a long tiime, BUT THIS COMMUNITY OPENED UP MY EYES TO THE FACT THAT THE REASON I ULTIMATELY JACK OFF IS BECAUSE I AM MOTHERFUCKING LONELY IN MY LIFE. and thats bad. thats really bad. im not saying if i have sex with 100 women that i have staved off loneliness or whatever. but i will say from personal experience that, even if two mutual people need to "get their rocks off" (lmao women dont have rocks?!?!?!?!?!?! what?) that there is a world of difference. in that hour of foreplay and hour of going at it with another woman and two hours of cuddle-napping, there is no loneliness. maybe shes weird and its shortlived.
but with porn all the time you spend youre stll lonely and it doesnt change anything.
oh my god i saw this cashier today and oh god oh god i want to fuck her so fucking bad and even though i know it will never fucking happen ever there is absolutely no depression about it BECAUSE PORN INSTILLS THIS IDEA THAT WE CAN GET WITH ANY WOMAN WE DESIRE BECAUSE WE CAN FIND ANY WOMAN WE DESIRE AND IT DEPRESSES US BECAUSE WE REALIZE DEEP DOWN THAT THIS IS JUST A FANTASY BUT PORN ALLOWS US TO GIVE INTO THE FANTASY AND WHEN WE GO OUT INTO THE REAL WORLD WE JUST BECOME DEPRESSED KNOWING IT IS A FANTASY THAT IS PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE TO FULFILL.
not looking at porn though you can appreciate the sheer beauty of a woman, and WHILE YOU KNOW YOU WILL NOT BE WITH HER, YOU KNOW EVERYTHING WILL BE OK BECAUSE YOU KNOW THAT SOMEWHERE THERE WILL BE A GIRL WHO WILL WANT YOU AND YOU KNOW THAT AFTER ALL THE TIME YOU TOOK FROM NOT JACKING OFF AT ALL YOU WILL BE ABLE TO PLEASE HER BECAUSE YOU WILL BE HARD AS A ROCK
and to be quite honest THE MOST ATTRACTIVE THING IN A WOMAN TO ME IS NOT HOW PRETTY SHE IS BUT HOW MUCH SHE WANTS ME. AS A PERSON. AS A THING. I REMEMBER MAKING EYE CONTACT WITH THIS GIRL AS SHE WAS LEAVING WALMART ONCE AND I KNOW THAT AS MUCH AS THIS GIRL WASNT A FUCKING 10 I COULDNT HELP BUT JUST FANTASIZE ABOUT ALL THE SHIT WE WOULD HAVE DONE WITH EACHOTHER PURELY BECAUSE WE BOTH WANTED IT. WANTED TO BE IN THE MOMENT. WANTED THE WARMTH THAT ONLY ANOTHER HUMAN BEING CAN PROVIDE. WARMTH THAT CANNOT BE MET WITH YOUR HAND OR ANY DEVICE NO MATTER HOW SOPHISTICATED IT MAY BE.
loook. at the end of the day. a girl may reject you. so what? she may accept you and then reject you? so what the fuck? DO NOT EVER LET THIS AFFECT YOUR ZEN and keep working on yourself and while i can't guarantee the rest of this shit will fall into place --------------------- i've been working at this shit for two months and oh my god DO I EVER FEEL SO MUCH MORE ALIVE THAN I EVER DID IN MY LIFE -- and maybe the sake just makes me feel pretty warm inside right now.
in the words of funny man yankevetta -- I'll catch ya on the flipside :)
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