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Haafingar is the hold in the northwest part of Skyrim.It's capital is Solitude, home to the widow of the late High King, Torygg, Elisif the Fair, Jarl of Haafingar.Like in every hold, to become Thane, you must first gain the attention of the Jarl. In Elisif's case, you will have to speak with her Steward, Falk Firebeard.He will usually be to the right of her throne in the Blue Palace. You can become a Thane of Haafingar before Civil War. It doesn't make sense to me. 3 comments. share. save hide report. 75% Upvoted. This thread is archived. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. Sort by. best. best top new controversial old q&a. level 1. Vidaren. 6 points · 2 years ago. So i've become thane of solitude atleast 20 times in my many play throughs, ocassionally i would get a bug where elisif couldn't open her mouth to say hey would you like to be thane. It was usually fixed by manually starting the quest, aka startquest favor252. So in my previous play through i attempted to start the quest and nothing happens, i also did setstage favor252 0 as well as 10. Can't get the dialogue to become Thane of Haafingar - posted in General Skyrim Discussion: Hi, I am having trouble with getting the dialogue to become Thane of Haafingar from Elisif. Ive finished all of Potema quests & horn delivery, and I was hoping to get the quest, which requires helping the people of Haafingar. Yes, I already bought the house. The cession during the Unending Season did not work, though), but you cannot rely on this trick for the thane quest of Haafingar (since Elisif cannot be replaced in vanilla). The following are my inductive methods to avoid this kind of problem (Do not visit the problematic hold in order not to trigger 'becoming X's thane' quest) Becoming Thane consists of a series of quests in The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim, in which the Dragonborn can become a Thane of all the holds in Skyrim. The standard formula for each hold is to complete a specific quest, or objective for the Jarl and then help out a specific number of citizens within the hold, either by doing quests, miscellaneous objectives, or helping out in some other way ... Thane of Haafingar is a quest available in The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim. The Dragonborn can gain the title of Thane of Haafingar. Talk to Falk Firebeard in the Blue Palace and he will give the quest "The Man Who Cried Wolf," investigating the lights and sounds coming out of Wolfskull Cave, which is located in the mountains west of Solitude. After completing the quest, talk to Falk again for a ... If you become Thane of Haafingar while it is under Imperial rule, and it later is conquered by the Stormcloaks, you retain your Thane status and can use it to remove a bounty then. The quest may not track how many favors you have performed, making it impossible to complete the quest. This bug is fixed by version 2.0.5 of the Unofficial Skyrim Patch. If you buy a house and you've assisted 5 people she makes you thane and gives you the Blade of Haafinger. You don't have to complete the whole Potema 2nd quest to become Thane cos I did that after becoming Thane so its nothing to do with the 2nd quest, just wondering if you've taken the horn to Whiterun? I have, in short, done every step of the quest necessary to become a Thane of Haafingar, but the dialogue option has never appeared when in conversation with the Queen. (Apparently, it is a fourth dialogue option reading, "My Jarl, is there anything else you need?")

2020.09.26 23:58 SnooMemesjellies1027 Crashing after becoming thane of Haafingar

Ive completed all the objectives to become thane, but once i go to Eilsif and she declares me thane, my game crashes upon leaving the conversation.. any ideas?
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The “Mighty Ducks” actor is running for president. He clears the air (sort of) to Tarpley Hitt about his ties to Jeffrey Epstein and more.
In the trailer for First Kid, the forgettable 1996 comedy about a Secret Service agent assigned to protect the president’s son, the title character, played by a teenage Brock Pierce, describes himself as “definitely the most powerful kid in the universe.” Now, the former child star is running to be the most powerful man in the world, as an Independent candidate for President of the United States.
Before First Kid, the Minnesota-born actor secured roles in a series of PG-rated comedies, playing a young Emilio Estevez in The Mighty Ducks, before graduating to smaller parts in movies like Problem Child 3: Junior in Love. When his screen time shrunk, Pierce retired from acting for a real executive role: co-founding the video production start-up Digital Entertainment Network (DEN) alongside businessman Marc Collins-Rector. At age 17, Pierce served as its vice president, taking in a base salary of $250,000.
DEN became “the poster child for dot-com excesses,” raising more than $60 million in seed investments and plotting a $75 million IPO. But it turned into a shorthand for something else when, in October of 1999, the three co-founders suddenly resigned. That month, a New Jersey man filed a lawsuit alleging Collins-Rector had molested him for three years beginning when he was 13 years old. The following summer, three teens filed a sexual-abuse lawsuit against Pierce, Collins-Rector, and their third co-founder, Chad Shackley. The plaintiffs later dropped their case against Pierce (he made a payment of $21,600 to one of their lawyers) and Shackley. But after a federal grand jury indicted Collins-Rector on criminal charges in 2000, the DEN founders left the country. When Interpol arrested them in 2002, they said they had confiscated “guns, machetes, and child pornography” from the trio’s beach villa in Spain.
While abroad, Pierce had pivoted to a new venture: Internet Gaming Entertainment, which sold virtual accessories in multiplayer online role-playing games to those desperate to pay, as one Wired reporter put it, “as much as $1,800 for an eight-piece suit of Skyshatter chain mail” rather than earn it in the games themselves. In 2005, a 25-year-old Pierce hired then-Goldman Sachs banker Steve Bannon—just before he would co-found Breitbart News. Two years later, after a World of Warcraft player sued the company for “diminishing” the fun of the game, Steve Bannon replaced Pierce as CEO.
Collins-Rector eventually pleaded guilty to eight charges of child enticement and registered as a sex offender. In the years that followed, Pierce waded into the gonzo economy of cryptocurrencies, where he overlapped more than once with Jeffrey Epstein, and counseled him on crypto. In that world, he founded Tether, a cryptocurrency that bills itself as a “stablecoin,” because its value is allegedly tied to the U.S. dollar, and the blockchain software company Like his earlier businesses, Pierce’s crypto projects see-sawed between massive investments and curious deals. When announced a smart contract software called EOS.IO, the company raised $4 billion almost overnight, setting an all-time record before the product even launched. The Securities and Exchange Commission later fined the company $24 million for violating federal securities law. After John Oliver mocked the ordeal, calling Pierce a “sleepy, creepy cowboy,” fired him. Tether, meanwhile, is currently under investigation by the New York Attorney General for possible fraud.
On July 4, Pierce announced his candidacy for president. His campaign surrogates include a former Cambridge Analytica director and the singer Akon, who recently doubled down on developing an anonymously funded, $6 billion “Wakanda-like” metropolis in Senegal called Akon City. Pierce claims to be bipartisan, and from the 11 paragraphs on the “Policy” section of his website it can be hard to determine where he falls on the political spectrum. He supports legalizing marijuana and abolishing private prisons, but avoids the phrase “climate change.” He wants to end “human trafficking.” His proposal to end police brutality: body cams.
His political contributions tell a more one-sided story. Pierce’s sole Democratic contribution went to the short-lived congressional run of crypto candidate Brian Forde. The rest went to Republican campaigns like Marco Rubio, Rick Perry, John McCain, and the National Right to Life Political Action Committee. Last year alone, Pierce gave over $44,000 to the Republican National Committee and more than $55,000 to Trump’s re-election fund.
Pierce spoke to The Daily Beast from his tour bus and again over email. Those conversations have been combined and edited for clarity.
You’re announcing your presidential candidacy somewhat late, and historically, third-party candidates haven’t had the best luck with the executive office. If you don’t have a strong path to the White House, what do you want out of the race?
I announced on July 4, which I think is quite an auspicious date for an Independent candidate, hoping to bring independence to this country. There’s a lot of things that I can do. One is: I’m 39 years old. I turn 40 in November. So I’ve got time on my side. Whatever happens in this election cycle, I’m laying the groundwork for the future. The overall mission is to create a third major party—not another third party—a third major party in this country. I think that is what America needs most. George Washington in his closing address warned us about the threat of political parties. John Adams and the other founding fathers—their fear for our future was two political parties becoming dominant. And look at where we are. We were warned.
I believe, having studied systems, any time you have a system of two, what happens is those two things come together, like magnets. They come into collision, or they become polarized and become completely divided. I think we need to rise above partisan politics and find a path forward together. As Albert Einstein is quoted—I’m not sure the line came from him, but he’s quoted in many places—he said that the definition of insanity is making the same mistake or doing the same thing over and over and over again, expecting a different result. [Ed. note: Einstein never said this.] It feels like that’s what our election cycle is like. Half the country feels like they won, half the country feels like they lost, at least if they voted or participated.
Obviously, there’s another late-comer to the presidential race, and that’s Kanye West. He’s received a lot of flak for his candidacy, as he’s openly admitted to trying to siphon votes away from Joe Biden to ensure a Trump victory. Is that something you’re hoping to avoid or is that what you’re going for as well?
Oh no. This is a very serious campaign. Our campaign is very serious. You’ll notice I don’t say anything negative about either of the two major political candidates, because I think that’s one of the problems with our political system, instead of people getting on stage, talking about their visionary ideas, inspiring people, informing and educating, talking about problems, mentioning problems, talking about solutions, constructive criticism. That’s why I refuse to run a negative campaign. I am definitely not a spoiler. I’m into data, right? I’m a technologist. I’ve got digital DNA. So does most of our campaign team. We’ve got our finger on the pulse.
Most of my major Democratic contacts are really happy to see that we’re running in a red state like Wyoming. Kanye West’s home state is Wyoming. He’s not on the ballot in Wyoming I could say, in part, because he didn’t have Akon on his team. But I could also say that he probably didn’t want to be on the ballot in Wyoming because it’s a red state. He doesn’t want to take additional points in a state where he’s only running against Trump. But we’re on the ballot in Wyoming, and since we’re on the ballot in Wyoming I think it’s safe—more than safe, I think it’s evident—that we are not here to run as a spoiler for the benefit of Donald Trump.
In running for president, you’ve opened yourself up to be scrutinized from every angle going back to the beginning of your career. I wanted to ask you about your time at the Digital Entertainment Network. Can you tell me a little bit about how you started there? You became a vice president as a teenager. What were your qualifications and what was your job exactly?
Well, I was the co-founder. A lot of it was my idea. I had an idea that people would use the internet to watch videos, and we create content for the internet. The idea was basically YouTube and Hulu and Netflix. Anyone that was around in the ‘90s and has been around digital media since then, they all credit us as the creators of basically those ideas. I was just getting a message from the creator of The Vandals, the punk rock band, right before you called. He’s like, “Brock, looks like we’re going to get the Guinness Book of World Records for having created the first streaming television show.”
We did a lot of that stuff. We had 30 television shows. We had the top most prestigious institutions in the world as investors. The biggest names. High-net-worth investors like Terry Semel, who’s chairman and CEO of Warner Brothers, and became the CEO of Yahoo. I did all sorts of things. I helped sell $150,000 worth of advertising contracts to the CEOs of Pepsi and everything else. I was the face of the company, meeting all the major banks and everything else, selling the vision of what the future was.
You moved in with Marc Collins-Rector and Chad Shackley at a mansion in Encino. Was that the headquarters of the business?
All start-ups, they normally start out in your home. Because it’s just you. The company was first started out of Marc’s house, and it was probably there for the first two or three months, before the company got an office. That’s, like, how it is for all start-ups.
were later a co-defendant in the L.A. County case filed against Marc Collins-Rector for plying minors with alcohol and drugs, in order to facilitate sexual abuse. You were dropped from the case, but you settled with one of the men for $21,600. Can you explain that?
Okay, well, first of all, that’s not accurate. Two of the plaintiffs in that case asked me if I would be a plaintiff. Because I refused to be a part of the lawsuit, they chose to include me to discredit me, to make their case stronger. They also went and offered 50 percent of what they got to the house management—they went around and offered money to anyone to participate in this. They needed people to corroborate their story. Eventually, because I refused to participate in the lawsuit, they named me. Subsequently, all three of the plaintiffs apologized to me, in front of audiences, in front of many people, saying Brock never did anything. They dismissed their cases.
Remember, this is a civil thing. I’ve never been charged with a crime in my life. And the last plaintiff to have his case dismissed, he contacted his lawyer and said, “Dismiss this case against Brock. Brock never did anything. I just apologized. Dismiss his case.” And the lawyer said, “No. I won’t dismiss this case, I have all these out-of-pocket expenses, I refuse to file the paperwork unless you give me my out-of-pocket expenses.” And so the lawyer, I guess, had $21,000 in bills. So I paid his lawyer $21,000—not him, it was not a settlement. That was a payment to his lawyer for his out-of-pocket expenses. Out-of-pocket expenses so that he would file the paperwork to dismiss the case.
You’ve said the cases were unfounded, and the plaintiffs eventually apologized. But your boss, Marc Collins-Rector later pleaded guilty to eight charges of child enticement and registered as a sex offender. Were you aware of his behavior? How do you square the fact that later allegations proved to be true, but these ones were not?
Well, remember: I was 16 and 17 years old at the time? So, no. I don’t think Marc is the man they made him out to be. But Marc is not a person I would associate with today, and someone I haven’t associated with in a very long time. I was 16 and 17. I chose the wrong business partner. You live and you learn.
You’ve pointed out that you were underage when most of these allegations were said to take place. Did you ever feel like you were coerced or in over your head while working at DEN?
I mean, I was working 18 hours a day, doing things I’d never done before. It was business school. But I definitely learned a lot in building that company. We raised $88 million. We filed our [form] S-1 to go public. We were the hottest start-up in Los Angeles.
In 2000, you left the country with Marc Collins-Rector. Why did you leave? How did you spend those two years abroad?
I moved to Spain in 1999 for personal reasons. I spent those two years in Europe working on developing my businesses.
Interpol found you in 2002. The house where you were staying reportedly contained guns, machetes, and child pornography. Whose guns and child porn were those? Were you aware they were in the house, and how did those get there?
My lawyers have addressed this in 32 pages of documentation showing a complete absence of wrongdoing. Please refer to my webpage for more information.
[Ed. Note: The webpage does not mention guns, machetes, or child pornography. It does state:“It is true that when the local police arrested Collins-Rector in Spain in 2002 on an international warrant, Mr. Pierce was also taken into custody, but so was everyone at Collins-Rector’s house in Spain; and it is equally clear that Brock was promptly released, and no charges of any kind were ever filed against Brock concerning this matter.”]
What do you make of the allegations against Bryan Singer? [Ed. Note: Bryan Singer, a close friend of Collins-Rector, invested at least $50,000 in DEN. In an Atlantic article outlining Singer’s history of alleged sexual assault and statutory rape, one source claimed that at age 15, Collins-Rector abused him and introduced him to Singer, who then assaulted him in the DEN headquarters.]
I am aware of them and I support of all victims of sexual assault. I will let America’s justice system decide on Singer’s outcome.

In 2011, you spoke at the Mindshift conference supported by Jeffrey Epstein. At that point, he had already been convicted of soliciting prostitution from a minor. Why did you agree to speak?
I had never heard of Jeffrey Epstein. His name was not on the website. I was asked to speak at a conference alongside Nobel Prize winners. It was not a cryptocurrency conference, it was filled with Nobel Prize winners. I was asked to speak alongside Nobel Prize winners on the future of money. I speak at conferences historically, two to three times a week. I was like, “Nobel Prize winners? Sounds great. I’ll happily talk about the future of money with them.” I had no idea who Jeffrey Epstein was. His name was not listed anywhere on the website. Had I known what I know now? I clearly would have never spoken there. But I spoke at a conference that he cosponsored.
What’s your connection to the Clinton Global Initiative? Did you hear about it through Jeffrey Epstein?
I joined the Clinton Global Initiative as a philanthropist in 2006 and was a member for one year. My involvement with the Initiative had no connection to Jeffrey Epstein whatsoever.
You’ve launched your campaign in Minnesota, where George Floyd was killed by a police officer. How do you feel about the civil uprising against police brutality?
I’m from Minnesota. Born and raised. We just had a press conference there, announcing that we’re on the ballot. Former U.S. Senator Dean Barkley was there. So that tells you, when former U.S. Senators are endorsing the candidate, right?
[Ed. note: Barkley was never elected to the United States Senate. In November of 2002, he was appointed by then Minnesota Governor Jesse Venture to fill the seat after Sen. Paul Wellstone died in a plane crash. Barkley’s term ended on Jan. 3, 2003—two months later.]
Yes, George Floyd was murdered in Minneapolis. My vice-presidential running mate Karla Ballard and I, on our last trip to Minnesota together, went to visit the George Floyd Memorial. I believe in law and order. I believe that law and order is foundational to any functioning society. But there is no doubt in my mind that we need reform. These types of events—this is not an isolated incident. This has happened many times before. It’s time for change. We have a lot of detail around policy on this issue that we will be publishing next week. Not just high-level what we think, not just a summary, but detailed policy.
You said that you support “law and order.” What does that mean?
“Law and order” means creating a fair and just legal system where our number one priority is protecting the inalienable rights of “Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness” for all people. This means reforming how our police intervene in emergency situations, abolishing private prisons that incentivize mass incarceration, and creating new educational and economic opportunities for our most vulnerable communities. I am dedicated to preventing crime by eliminating the socioeconomic conditions that encourage it.
I support accountability and transparency in government and law enforcement. Some of the key policies I support are requiring body-cams on all law enforcement officers who engage with the public, curtailing the 1033 program that provides local law enforcement agencies with access to military equipment, and abolishing private prisons. Rather than simply defund the police, my administration will take a holistic approach to heal and unite America by ending mass incarceration, police brutality, and racial injustice.
Did you attend any Black Lives Matter protests?
I support all movements aimed at ending racial injustice and inequality. I​ have not attended any Black Lives Matter protests.​ My running-mate, Karla Ballard, attended the March on Washington in support of racial justice and equality.
Your platform doesn’t mention the words “climate change.” Is there a reason for that?
I’m not sure what you mean. Our policy platform specifically references human-caused climate change and we have a plan to restabilize the climate, address environmental degradation, and ensure environmental sustainability.
[Ed. Note: As of writing the Pierce campaign’s policy platform does not specifically reference human-caused climate change.]
You’ve recently brought on Akon as a campaign surrogate. How did that happen? Tell me about that.
Akon and I have been friends for quite some time. I was one of the guys that taught him about Bitcoin. I helped make some videogames for him, I think in 2012. We were talking about Bitcoin, teaching him the ropes, back in 2013. And in 2014, we were both speaking at the Milken Global Conference, and I encouraged him to talk about how Bitcoin, Africa, changed the world. He became the biggest celebrity in the world, talking about Bitcoin at the time. I’m an adviser to his Akoin project, very interested in the work that he’s doing to build a city in Africa.
I think we need a government that’s of, for, and by the people. Akon has huge political aspirations. He obviously was a hugely successful artist. But he also discovered artists like Lady Gaga. So not only is he, himself, a great artist, but he’s also a great identifier and builder of other artists. And he’s been a great businessman, philanthropist. He’s pushing the limits of what can be done. We’re like-minded individuals in that regard. I think he’ll be running for political office one day, because he sees what I see: that we need real change, and we need a government that is of, for, and by the people.
You mentioned that you’re an adviser on Akoin. Do you have any financial investments in Akoin or Akon City?
I don’t believe so. I’d have to check. I have so much stuff. But I don’t believe that I have any economic interests in his stuff. I’d have to verify that. We’ll get back to you. I don’t believe that I have any economic interests. My interest is in helping him. He’s a visionary with big ideas that wants to help things in the world. If I can be of assistance in helping him make the world a better place, I’m all for it. I’m not motivated by money. I’m not running for office because I’m motivated by power. I’m running for office because I’m deeply, deeply concerned about our collective future.
You’ve said you’re running on a pro-technology platform. One week into your campaign last month, a New York appeals court approved the state Attorney General’s attempt to investigate the stablecoin Tether for potentially fraudulent activity. Do you think this will impact your ability to sell people on your tech entrepreneurship?
No, I think my role in Tether is as awesome as it gets. It was my idea. I put it together. But I’ve had no involvement in the company since 2015. I gave all of my equity to the other shareholders. I’ve had zero involvement in the company for almost six years. It was just my idea. I put the initial team together. But I think Tether is one of the most important innovations in the world, certainly. The idea is, I digitized the U.S. dollar. I used technology to digitize currency—existing currency. The U.S. dollar in particular. It’s doing $10 trillion a year. Ten trillion dollars a year of transactional volume. It’s probably the most important innovation in currency since the advent of fiat money. The people that took on the business and ran the business in years to come, they’ve done things I’m not proud of. I’m not sure they’ve done anything criminal. But they certainly did things differently than I would do. But it’s like, you have kids, they turn 18, they go out into the world, and sometimes you’re proud of the things they do, and sometimes you shake your head and go, “Ugh, why did you do that?” I have zero concerns as it relates to me personally. I wish they made better decisions.
What do you think the investigation will find?
I have no idea. The problem that was raised is that there was a $5 million loan between two entities and whether or not they had the right to do that, did they disclose it correctly. There’s been no accusations of, like, embezzlement or anything that bad.
[Ed. Note: The Attorney General’s press release on the investigation reads: “Our investigation has determined that the operators of the ‘Bitfinex’ trading platform, who also control the ‘tether’ virtual currency, have engaged in a cover-up to hide the apparent loss of $850 million dollars of co-mingled client and corporate funds.”]
But there’s been some disclosure things, that is the issue. No one is making any outrageous claims that these are people that have done a bunch of bad—well, on the internet, the media has said that the people behind the business may have been manipulating the price of Bitcoin, but I don’t think that has anything to do with the New York investigation. Again, I’m so not involved, and so not at risk, that I’m not even up to speed on the details.
[Ed note: A representative of the New York State Attorney General told Forbes that he “cannot confirm or deny that the investigation” includes Pierce.]
We’ve recently witnessed the rise of QAnon, the conspiracy theory that Hollywood is an evil cabal of Satanic pedophiles and Trump is the person waging war on them. You mentioned human trafficking, which has become a cause for them. What are your thoughts on that?
I’ve watched some of the content. I think it’s an interesting phenomenon. I’m an internet person, so Anonymous is obviously an organization that has been doing interesting stuff. It’s interesting. I don’t have a big—conspiracy theory stuff is—I guess I have a question for you: What do you think of all of it, since you’re the expert?
You know, I think it’s not true, but I’m not running for president. I do wonder what this politician [Georgia congressional candidate Marjorie Taylor Greene], who’s just won her primary, is going to do on day one, once she finds out there’s no satanic cabal room.
Wait, someone was running for office and won on a QAnon platform, saying that Hollywood did—say what? You’re the expert here.
She won a primary. But I want to push on if we only have a few minutes. In 2006, your gaming company IGE brought on Steve Bannon as an investor. Goldman later bought out most of your stock. Bannon eventually replaced you as CEO of Affinity. You’ve described him as your “right-hand man for, like, seven years.” How well did you know Bannon during that time?
Yes, so this is in my mid-twenties. He wasn’t an investor. He worked for me. He was my banker. He worked for me for three years as my yield guide. And then he was my CEO running the company for another four years. So I haven’t worked with Steve for a decade or so. We worked in videogame stuff and banking. He was at Goldman Sachs. He was not in the political area at the time. But he was a pretty successful banker. He set up Goldman Sachs Los Angeles. So for me, I’d say he did a pretty good job.
During your business relationship, Steve Bannon founded Breitbart News, which has pretty consistently published racist material. How do you feel about Breitbart?
I had no involvement with Breitbart News. As for how I feel about such material, I’m not pleased by any form of hate-mongering. I strongly support the equality of all Americans.
Did you have qualms about Bannon’s role in the 2016 election?
Bannon’s role in the Trump campaign got me to pay closer attention to what he was doing but that’s about it. Whenever you find out that one of your former employees has taken on a role like that, you pay attention.
Bannon served on the board of Cambridge Analytica. A staffer on your campaign, Brittany Kaiser, also served as a business director for them. What are your thoughts on their use of illicitly-obtained Facebook data for campaign promotional material?
Yes, so this will be the last question I can answer because I’ve got to be off for this 5:00 pm. But Brittany Kaiser is a friend of mine. She was the whistleblower of Cambridge Analytica. She came to me and said, “What do I do?” And I said, “Tell the truth. The truth will set you free.”
[Ed. Note: Investigations in Cambridge Analytica took place as early as Nov. 2017, when a U.K. reporter at Channel 4 News recorded their CEO boasting about using “beautiful Ukranian girls” and offers of bribes to discredit political officials. The first whistleblower was Christopher Wylie, who disclosed a cache of documents to The Guardian, published on Mar. 17, 2018. Kaiser’s confession ran five days later, after the scandal made national news. Her association with Cambridge Analytica is not mentioned anywhere on Pierce’s campaign website.]
So I’m glad that people—I’m a supporter of whistleblowers, people that see injustice in the world and something not right happening, and who put themselves in harm’s way to stand up for what they believe in. So I stand up for Brittany Kaiser.
Who do you think [anonymous inventor of Bitcoin] Satoshi Nakamoto is?
We all are Satoshi Nakamoto.
You got married at Burning Man. Have you been attending virtual Burning Man?
I’m running a presidential campaign. So, while I was there in spirit, unfortunately my schedule did not permit me to attend.
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2020.09.20 19:03 Mistresspreslie House sex cams

Interesting isn't it?🧐
Republicans are conservative, that's just a fact. And sex workers are just . . . Not. Lol! A conservative sex worker is one who conceals their face while posting naughty pictures online.
But why do so many sex workers lean towards President Trump versus Joe Biden?
I was a stripper for nine years, now running an onlyfans site & online webcamming. Throughout my whole career I have been a diehard Republican.
I am from New Jersey which is a very liberal state, but I do come from a Republican county. The area I live in has a lot of wealth and they don't want to see more of it go to taxes. So that has always stuck with me, Democrats will raise taxes. Even if they raised property taxes last year, they will raise them again this year
I started dancing in 2011 under the Obama administration. I was 18 years old when I started, and all of the "older" strippers had told me that before the recession they were killing it. Once the recession hit they had to fight to make money. At this time in 2011 things were slowly getting better. People were getting out of that recession mentality; "save every penny because you could lose your job tomorrow." But the industry had no way recovered to pre-2008 standards.
I had gotten really lucky. I was 18 years old "fresh meat" and I was going to make money just because I was the new girl. But I watched a lot of girls struggle to make $200 on a weekend night that should bring in $600+ easily.
I had two good summers, in 2012 and 2013. I was a new face, I was still a "teen," like I said, "fresh meat" sells better. 2014 was horrible! I was only 21 years old and it was an awful summer, no one was making money. The Jersey shore was dead, rentals were empty. Hurricane Sandy hit in November 2012, most businesses were back up and running in the summer of 2013. Some had yet to reopen in 2013, but by the summer of 2014 All of the businesses had re-opened, all of the rentals have been fixed and open for business. But only half were booked ON WEEKENDS. Weekdays were absolutely dead. Our club being 3 miles from the beach relied heavily on this summer traffic. During 2014 there waa no difference between summer and winter. Both were the same, disappointing. Many of my friends were struggling, needing to work 6 days a week just to get by.
2015 got a little bit better, but not much. And then a big change came in 2016.
2016 was an election year, and yes strippers talk politics. Now 23 years old and dancing for five years I was already a veteran. I was one of the highest earners at the club and people would often come to me for money making advice. I also love talking politics, history, and proving people wrong; so the dressing room hosted A LOT of political debates. "Welcome to debate club, strippers edition." 😂
A lot of the new, younger girls were very excited about Hillary Clinton running for President. They were hoping that she would win, that she would legalize marijuana, that she would "change" this country. But the girls who had been dancing for years, the girls who were making a lot of money. . . They were all for candidate Trump.
"Why would you vote for Trump?" Was a question I was frequently asked.
"Trump wants to make abortion illegal!" "Trump will never legalize marijuana!" Those were the biggest complaints about Trump.
As for abortion, I believe the woman has the right to choose. But I also know politics. I know that Trump is from New York and he's not super conservative, he is not from the Bible belt, he is never going to waste his time making abortions illegal in this country. He knows they are a necessary evil. But will he say he is against it? Absolutely, he needs to please those ultra conservative voters. Something A LOT OF PEOPLE don't understand.
As for marijuana, I think we need the extra revenue so that the Democrats could spend it. But would Hillary Clinton have been able to make it legal with a Republican controlled Senate. (And house at the time I believe). . I don't think so.
And like I stated the girls who were making a lot of money, who had invested in other businesses and were getting ready to retire, or who had owned real estate. . . They were all voting for Trump.
"The Trump girls," did not want to pay more money in taxes in a very high tax state. They wanted to be able to use their extra income to invest in other opportunities, to invest in their kids college education, or go to school themselves. Of course the younger Clinton voters weren't even claiming taxes, so they didn't care how much she raised our taxes. They wanted to collect more welfare because their income was totally off the books.
President Trump ended up winning the election, and very quickly Something Happened. The stock market started going up. As mentioned, we are from a republican wealthy county in New Jersey. A lot of these men work in New York on Wall Street, or are heavily invested in the market. Once the stock market went up, the club was popping! The winter of 2016-2017 was amazing. People felt more secure to spend money, Guys had no problem dropping $3,4,500 in the VIP room. We finally had a huge shower of singles on stage for the first time in forever. And this was only the winter.
Summer 2017 came and it was my best summer ever. It was my best summer even though by mid august I was barely working as I was suffering horrible morning sickness when I got pregnant with my first child. $1500 could be made in 2-3 hours on a weekend night. If you got really lucky it could be made as a tip in a 15 minute VIP room. 2017 was the summer of money!
My life took a turn however. After I had my son I really didn't work that much. I would go in one or two days a month. But it was still enough for me to be able to buy my very first apartment! If I had worked like that during the Obama years, I would have been struggling to pay rent. However I was paying a mortgage and saving money.
I basically call myself semi-retired now. And now I am entering my third trimester with my second baby. But from august 2017-january 2020 on a two day a month schedule, I was able to save enough money to put a down payment on a bigger home.
The taxes in this state are ridiculous, and we will never vote in a Republican governor to lower our taxes. But the last thing I need is higher federal taxes.
Instead of debating The legalization of marijuana, I am now having debates about college education for my kids. Why wouldn't I vote for Joe Biden who believes in free college education? I am going to have two children to put through college. And that answer is very simple. My kids are young. I have 15 1/2 more years to save for my older son and I started saving for him a week after he was born. Even if I only put away $2000 a year, he will have $36,000 once he turns 18; enough to pay for his first year. Invested in the S&P 500 that could easily be $70,000. What if I have a good year and I could invest another thousand dollars?
Joe Biden wants to give us free community college which is what? 5K a year? Even if he did make four year colleges free, would they be only state schools? Im sure private schools wouldn't be free. At rutgers the current tuition in-state is about $10,000/year. 4 years would be $40,000. With what I am saving right now, I would only be $4000 short of covering all four years of college. That is not calculating gains from the market.
But what if my taxes were raised another $2000 a year? That money would be going to the government instead of saving for my son. What if he increased taxes to 50%? Not only would I not be able to save money for my kids I wouldn't be able to save money for short term goals.
I recently became an only fans creator, taking advantage of my pregnancy and the fetish industry. Some of these woman are making $300,000+ a year. I have been much more successful in a month than I ever thought I would.
My reason for starting this work was to help my husband fund our home renovation. I thought I would be able to help with little things, but now I am going to be able to help with bigger things and save money for my kids college fund.
As I am learning more about the online sex worker industry, I see all of the expenses these girls have. They need to buy good cameras and film equipment. Constantly on their phones, you need good service and a lot of data. New content is a must for success, hence new outfits, backdrops, toys, props, and shoes for the foot fetish guys!
All of the money needs to be claimed INCLUDING tips. It's not like being a stripper where the majority of your money goes unclaimed, in fact it can't even be tracked because it's cash tipped to you behind a closed VIP room curtain. Every dime an Only Fans creator makes is carefully logged and must be claimed at the end of the year. And let's not forget Only Fans takes 20% of your earnings off the top, to run their website and because of the high fees credit card companies charge because it is considered a "high risk industry."
So creators lose 20% off the top. I would say they easily spend 10% of their income on work related expenses for making their content better. Some pay for promotions so that their pages grow faster. Others NEED assistants or hire other experts. We employ a lot of other people! But 30% is gone right away.
Then you have to pay taxes, depending on your state and your tax bracket it could be as little as 15% and as much as 40%! Let's say we need to pay 25% in taxes just like a lot of people. That's 55% of our money gone.
Let's say you're doing pretty well on only fans making $5000 a month, $60,000/year. $12,000 you'll never even see. $6000 goes towards all of the expenses and is tax deductible. And now you have to pay taxes on $42,000. $10,500 (25%) and $16,800(40%) doesn't seem like a big difference, but it is when you put in so much hard work. Imagine making $60,000 but only having $25,000 to show for it after taxes. It makes it not even worth it.
Even if you're working 12 hours a day/7 days a week and making $200,000/year on Only fans, having less than $100,000 in your pocket at the end of the day is complete BS!
Some might ask, why not switch sites? Live cam sites take 40% or more of your money! If you're a stay at home mom like me, you can't stream live on camera while your kid is home or awake.
So now that I got into the financials of online sex work, you can understand why so many sex workers support President Trump. Unlike a regular job, we have to pay a fee just to make money. We don't want our taxes raised on top of it!
Then there are the customers. We rely on customers to put their credit card into a Onlyfans, and spend anywhere from $3 to $20 a month on a creator's subscription profile.
Despite many people losing their jobs because of Covid, the site has been busier than ever. Instead of going out to clubs, movies, or taking girls on dates, guys have been going on dates with their favorite online sex worker. but not everybody is able to do that at the moment.
If you are struggling, if you can't pay your bills, you're not going to be spending money on online porn, let's be real. Covid and the impact it has had on jobs is not the Presidents' fault. I'm thinking back to that horrible summer of 2014 when Obama was in office. How slow would Only Fans be if this was 2014. With so many extra creators trying to make money because they also have lost jobs, there would be very few girls making big money, and the majority making nothing. Right now you have a lot of girls making a lot of money, a lot of girls making a decent living, and just a few making pennies.
I think President Trump has given customers confidence that the economy is going to turn around, that jobs are going to come back. He has also given them an amazing economy over the past few years that has allowed people to fill their savings accounts. We are not in the "save every penny mentality," that I saw in 2011 when things were recovering from a big recession.
That's Another reason many sex workers support Trump. He gives clients the confidence to spend their hard earned money.
There are many issues that sex workers do not agree with Republicans on. The biggest I could think of is abortion & the woman's right to choose. Prostitution is another big one, especially for me. I would love to see legal prostitution in New Jersey one day! I would be so proud if my son could own New Jersey's first legal brothel. The reasons why I support LEGAL prostitution is a totally different argument, but Republicans would never support that! Yet I still side with Republicans.
We side with Republicans because we want to have better lives not only for ourselves but for our children. And in this country you need money to have a better life. You need money to move from a tiny two bedroom apartment into a simple townhouse. You need money to invest in your children's future so they don't need to be sex workers. You need money to invest in another business so you don't need to sext all day long. And you need money if you want to clear your head and take a vacation or go to the spa for a day! And that money does better in the hands of individual citizens to choose what they want to do with it, versus in the hands of the government!
If you have the "guts" to be a sex worker you should be compensated. It is a huge industry that makes billions of dollars, and provides jobs for millions of people. (and I say GUTS because not everyone can have the confidence to go online and show their body to strangers. Not everyone could act. Not everyone could stand tall and tell the world, I send nude videos for a living.)
I could stand tall and say it! I am a sex worker! I work really hard for my money! I show my body on camera to random men, and I'm good at it! And I don't want Joe Biden to come in and raise taxes under the farce of "free college." I don't need Joe Biden to make everyday working men lose confidence in our economy. And I certainly don't need to spend priceless time to decipher what the hell Joe Biden is trying to say to me (sorry I had to add that! 😂) And if the day ever comes that I decide I don't want to do this work anymore, I know President Trump has made the economy great and could make it even better, allowing me to find another well-paying job to support my family.
Written by me: -Mistress Preslie 🖤💋
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2020.09.19 17:15 RustyBlunderbuss House sex cams

Forgive me Reddit, but I feel as though this may be the only place I can vent my feelings. I have been keeping this in for a very long time and I’m going to put in as much detail as I possibly can, and it might be slightly everywhere in terms of context and pace so I do apologise, I’ve just fired this out after a shift at work and I feel now is the time, I feel as though I need to put it out there and finally get it off my chest, at least most of it.
I appreciate this is a lot to read, and there may be spelling errors and the like but it's all flodding out. I just need some reconciliation and/or some advice.
(T/W for depression, self-harm etc.)
I dream about her constantly, my heart aches even to this very day. It’s been 4 years, 5 come February next year since we broke up. Well, since she broke up with me…
After this period of time I have attempted to fill this void that my heart feels with various stimulants and yet nothing seems to mend me. Alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, sex. Nothing really did it for me, at the time - great, a distraction but nothing quite echoes my sadness like smoking weed and drinking bottles of red wine to myself in my bedroom all day…
She added me on Snapchat in 2013, but we met through a close family friend close to Christmas 2014. My close family friend, who I stayed with at the time was having a movie night and she came round. I was so nervous, it took about an hour before I plucked up the courage to go through and sit on the floor at the foot of the chair she was sitting on. Didn't make eye contact with her once. But feeling her precense made me so happy.

I've moved about 300 miles away (plus a little extra from the town I used to live in.) I’m back in education, I’m doing music again, I’m quite enjoying my life.
But the ache of this breakup has aged horribly and has not at all helped my psyche one bit.
I’ve seen her in person (not intimately in the sense that we had a conversation) but from afar, at my work and passing my work. You feel that sort of awkward energy when you’re both aware of each other.
Anyway, during this relationship I wasn’t really talking to my parents and I was staying with a close family friend (basically a second mum) and at the time I was experiencing things in my head that I didn’t truly understand, and it was only until one breakdown at my old job in the bathroom toilets with a stolen stanley blade, then an immediate breakdown infront of a customer who turned out to be a good samaritan (genuinely) and then taken to hospital that I found out I was suffering depression. Not great.
There were many good times that i remember about this relationship…
(I want to make it clear now that I am not calling anyone out in this blog, I’m just stating some facts and feelings.)
There was the time where she had her birthday party at her house, tonne of people there. I left the room so she could get changed and ready, then her friends joined her to do the same, put on makeup and that. I got beckoned through, and I walked in… And wow. I saw her, and my heart hit the floor. I’d never seen something, someone so beautiful in all my days, and she was mine. She was my girlfriend.
Another moment I remember fondly is the ice cream we used to get just outside of the town we used to live… Stunning. She introduced me to it. Sadly, I would visit that place after we broke up and as cliché as it sounds, it never tasted the same…
We visited a very small village a few miles out of town once as well, beautiful, amazing little place - but i could never bring myself to go back there after we broke up.
There was the time we went to see a band we both really liked at a famous venue in the city I live in, but now I can’t ever bring myself to listen to them.
The best thing that ever happened to me in that relationship was I was having a really tough couple of weeks at my new job (she was living a hundred miles away at uni) I got home to my parents house (my parents and i were on good terms at this point, for a bit) it must have been 8 or 9 o’clock at night. I walk in, feeling pretty shitty. My mum said hello, asked how I was. Didn’t say much. Kind of weird. I walk upstairs to my bedroom, flick on the light and she was there, sat on my bed waiting for me to get home. I literally dropped to my knees and started sobbing, really belting out the tears. I couldn’t believe it. That to this day is one of the nicest things that anyone’s ever done for me. I cherish that memory, but it hurts like a red hot needle to the chest…
The bad times…
Oh wow.

Smells, places, people. I can't even experience anymore, natural though.

Diasy by Marc Jacobs? I can't.
Invictus was the aftershave I used to wear around her all the time, she loved it. I hate the smell now. It hurts too much to wear it.
I want to also establish that mentally I’m more sound than I’ve ever been. I’m a lot better. I’ve gotten help and at the time the medication that I needed. It all helped.
But, at that time I was very defensive, abrasive, so childish. I am certainly not the same person as I was a few years ago, and I’m sure she isn’t either. Definitely not. I’m not perfect in any way, but I’ve improved but I was young at the time, well, younger.
But I used to get so jealous of stupid things, some were justified, many unjustifiable.
Like she had a crush on a friend, which she admitted. Who’s to blame her, they knew each other way before I cam on the scene, he was/is talented and a good looking guy. But at the time, that rubbed me the wrong way - I’m sure anyone can relate to that!
There was also a time where she picked up him and her cousin up to head into town and she asked me to move into the back seat so the aforementioned guy could sit in the front with her. That’s so stupid now but at the time it hurt.
When I was with her all I ever wanted to do was show her off and celebrate the relationship. But I sort of felt as though she didn’t want the same for me, and it (at least at the time) felt as though she was embarrassed of me. She’d take all these photos with her friends but not with me? I didn’t understand it then, so naturally it upset me. I’m sure she had her reasons, but, it still hurt. It could have been her own insecurities, but I don’t want to be presumptuous as a person with their own insecurities.
There was one day after I got my first car, I drove it through to hers and we were going to go for a drive and she asked to drive her car and I moaned about wanting to drive my car instead. Stupid, like really? I don’t know why I made such a big deal out of it.
I kind of dragged that story off, but a horrible thing I did was I cut myself at her house frequently, and i did it her room one time just before she got back and i don’t know why I let myself do something so stupid like that. That upset her, and no wonder.
(This relationship went from December 2014 - February 2016 by the way.)
Onto the lead up to the breakup…
I used to hangout with a couple of friends from my old, old job. (During this relationship I had 3 different jobs at separate times, this was the job I had before the jobs i mentioned earlier, any who.) One night we went out we all went back to mine because it was dead in the centre of town and it saved them getting a taxi so they got picked up in the morning instead. One of these friends was a girl. We all kind of piled in my bed (clothes on), totally platonic, and started falling asleep, not in an intimate way. She then proceeded to try and spoon me, cuddle me so I moved and I asked her to stop because I had a girlfriend. This obviously had me worried, like, why is my friend doing this. She made a big deal of this and went to sleep in a sulk.
We went out as a trio a few times after that and before that happened for drinks and food and that. Nothing ever came of that. We didn’t speak about it, but of course it upset me. We all still hung out and didn’t mention this or speak about it. Scared me. I spoke to the guy friend of our trio about it, he didn’t say much to help.
During this time hanging out with them I spoke with the girl about my relationship, which in all honesty I shouldn’t have done but I had spoke to my gf about how I was feeling as well. I spoke about how I felt like she was embarrassed of me, and that I thought about breaking up with her…
A few weeks around this my girlfriend and I had this one friend in our friend circle, I won’t obviously mention names. Haven’t so far, but anyway
He texted me one day saying that he just saw my gf in a car with other guys and where she was, didn’t give me any other context. He was a shit-stirrer, always was. He knows that, so do many people. Obviously this sends me into a emegency mode, alarm bells ringing. So I jumped in my car and drove past the location, she wasn’t there. I texted her and asked, no reply for a while. Went back home gave me a reply, obviously I’m freaking out (probably at her) I was worried. Turns out she was with one (ONE) of her friends, he texted me saying sorry and that he didn’t mean to upset me. They were legit just hanging out eating a McDonalds. I used to hold a lot of distain for this guy for years after because I knew he had (and probably still has) a crush on her, so that rubbed me the wrong way as well but hey-ho.
I can’t remember what happened in-between, but we (me+gf) were not talking to each other for a bit then she texted me to say it was over. Obviously at the time I was in shock but looking back now I can see why, it was me. So uptight, jealous. Over-emotional to the max. Like wow bro chill out.
She came over to give me back a few things. I cried for days, texted her begging for an answer why but all I got was “I don’t want to talk about this” and “I don’t have time for this I’m busy”… I never got the closure of why, and I think that may be why it hurts more but…
A week later I drove through to her house to get answers, any sort of clarification to clear my mind, she got in the car and didn’t say much. Just repeating what she said before. At least as much as I can remember.
Flashforward a few weeks later, I’m driving in the town I stay and I see her coming toward me, I recognised the reg’ plate and who do I see in the front seat next to her… Her ex boyfriend.
This immediately sent me in a melt down.
This was the very same guy who treated her horribly before me.
I couldn’t understand it. Why?
My close friend (same circle) spoke about it a year later or so and she mentioned that they had been “sort of seeing each other” after we split, but then he cheated on her (he had a history of doing this).
We spoke about it again a while ago, a few months ago actually. Hurts still.
It’s so weird looking back in retrospect because I’m so chilled out now, but I think that I feel this heartbreak every day as there was no closure. And that’s why I’m still hurt.
Though, I’m still blocked on social media, facebook, Twitter, insta you name it. Though, it takes a lot for someone to undo that. Like, if you’re not thinking about that person you blocked at all you’ll forget about it or you don’t care that much, understandably. I don’t know.
There are times where I feel the need to just message her out of the blue and apologise and tell her that we were different people back then and I wasn’t right for her at the time, but maybe she wasn’t right for me at the time. We were just a couple of kids with rose-tinted glasses. I don’t know.
Again, I just needed to vent this out because I can’t speak to anyone about this. I just can’t. So I’m hoping someone here can just give me some sort of virtual reassurance, a pat on the back or some advice.
I try to remove thoughts of her and distract myself but I can’t, I dream about her constantly. It aches to my very core, as dramatic as that sounds. I can’t get over this, though someday I hope that I will.
I hold no malice to any of these people, and certainly not her. I just wish that we could come to terms with everything, and be mutual about it all. I’ve had a lot of time the last few years to reconcile with people.
I think there will always be a part of her in me for years to come, but what do I do?

Added later:
When her name leaves my lips it aches me more, sometimes I just whipser them softly allowed.
When her name leaves my lips it aches me more, sometimes I just whisper them softly allowed.
Every relationship or fling after her made me happy, but a part of her remains.
I’m sorry for ever hurting you.
I’ll probably add to this later, as I have a tendency to repress some of these memories so they come and go.
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Sorry in advance for the long post.
I'm a 22 year old female. I come from a religious background but myself am not religious. My family is muslim and very cultural, so they have always been extremely controlling and restrictive, and sometimes even abusive, my dad even physically abusive (he one time hit me so hard I had a bruise on my eye and couldn't go to school until it healed, because we had a argument and I was washing dishes "with an attitude"). I have never been out of the house past 8 pm in my all 22 years unless I lied and said I was sleeping over with a friend, not allowed to date or have male friends, and not allowed to dress how I want, get tattoos/piercings or even dye my hair. They say as the eldest daughter I am the "face of the family" and I must live my life with my family's reputation on my shoulders.
I am basically living a double life and doing what I want behind their backs because I decided a long time ago that I cannot live the life they have set out for me (finish studying, arranged marriage, become a housewife, have kids). This weighs heavy on me and I do not feel comfortable around my family, I am much happier when I am away from them and feel like I can breathe.
We are living abroad in a foreign country and have been for years. In high school my dad never cared much about my grades, he said I don't need an education because I will marry a rich man anyway. My mom does not share this opinion but still never pressured me to study, which was fine because I did not need her to anyway. Nonetheless I decided to study psychology in university and got into one of the best unis in my country that teaches in english, and my dad finances my education while I live at home. I am now about to start my final year.
My plan is to finish university and then move out and never contact my family again. The problem is, I don't know how I would even do that. I have no work experience, as I have not worked a day in my life because my dad never allowed it. He threatens me with violence and even threatens to honor kill me, so I never openly rebelled against him.
I do have a friend who also wants to move out, she is in a similar situation but nowhere near as severe, her dad is muslim but her mom isn't and she just doesn't like living at home but there are no threats of violence and she has left her house and lived with her boyfriend for months at a time and then came back home. The reason I'm telling this is because I'm worried if we moved out together and we couldn't make it on our own she could easily move back in with her parents, and I would not have that option because my dad would definitely severely beat me, BEST case scenario.
The second problem I have is that I am living in a foreign country where I don't know the language too well, I don't have a citizenship. I've been pressuring my parents to get us all a citizenship on the grounds that my dad bought $540k property (here it warrants a citizenship). My dad says we will do it, which makes me happy because it also means that when I do leave they will not be able to find me and drag me back to my country because I will be a citizen here. I don't know how long this process will take, it might be more than a year.
I've been saving money and I started streaming (not camming, regular streaming and talking to people fully clothed) on an app and made $1200 so far, but streaming is an unreliable source of income because some weeks I make $400 and other weeks I only make $20. Still I will continue to save up money because that's all I can really do right now. I've also picked up an online job where I photoshop people's pictures for money, but I barely get any customers there and have only made $30 there. I'm also conventionally attractive and I plan to start modeling to make money (in secret, if my dad found out he would be furious), I found one photographer and did a TFP shoot, and I plan to do more and build up a portfolio. I even resorted to using dating apps to find a "sugar daddy" but I realized they all want sex and I can't give them that. I am really desperate at this point and I feel hopeless.
To be a psychologist, a bachelor's degree is not enough, I will need to get a master's or a phd to do something meaningful and make money. I just don't feel like I can stay with my family for much longer because they really make me depressed. I also don't feel like I have many skills other than speaking 2 languages fluently.
Any financial advice, or just life advice if you have been in this situation or know someone that's been in this situation, will be greatly appreciated, and I will look into any websites for online jobs or anything like that. If you made it this far thank you so much. Sorry again that this is a lot, or if I posted in the wrong place, and sorry for the grammar, I wrote this in a rush.
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2020.09.12 22:36 hotdogsrock I really just need to get this out and be heard. Maybe using as for last few therapy sessions.

Hi all,
So I’m a mid-20 yo f who’s recently-ish moved out of State, and away from my immediate family. I really just want to compile a listing of my justifications in cutting ties, and so I don’t blank next time I’m at the therapist. I only have 2 more counseling sessions that are free on my insurance and want to maximize my time. I’m open to any advice should anyone have any to give. Just kinda getting it off my chest.
Mom is physically abusive beginning from age 5, flying into rages. I recall having my karate uniform be left in the washer (by her), and she flew into a rage thinking I lost it. She raged by slapping me around the head, pushing my head into the walls. This kind of thing was common, and I’d be scolded for waiting for dad to come home. He made her stop hitting me. Still he wasn’t a good guy. Mom and biological dad divorce when I’m 8/9/10. He gambled away our house, slept with a majority of my mom’s family (male and female), and abused her through their time together. We move into a tiny apt and Mom goes into depression. I’m in fifth grade. She rarely gets up or bathes, can routinely hear her crying. Usually sleeps on the couch during the day, is up at night. Food doesn’t come in the house often. I’m yelled at if I try to make a grilled cheese. She accuses me of eating her food. I don’t have money on my lunch account. Sometimes I stole chips or a friend would bring me extra apple pieces. I’m in fifth grade, not showering, not routinely making it to school. My teacher knows I began my menses given odors and bleeding through my panties. She asks me, and I learn how to perform peri-care during this time. I couldn’t go out the house too far, but made friends with a neighboring apt kid. I stay often, helping her do chores and her mom feeds me. Eventually mom meets someone online. They talk all night and she starts to wake more during the day. She mutes the phone when she goes in rages so he doesn’t hear. He sends her money for our rent and bills. She splurges in the expensive phone bill (talking to him always) and smokes. He comes over, and everything goes wrong. A week before his arrival, mom suddenly wakes up and gives me a trash bag and tells me to clean. The house is a mess, but I’m also 10 and given no house training. I throw away a bunch of papers and trash. I clean. When he arrives he accuses me of trashing my moms divorce papers. I didn’t, but I stay awake for hours being cross-examines. Having school the next day, and being emotionally berated I just say yeah I did. This becomes common. He accuses me of using alcohol. I am 10, and do not. He accuses me of bashing my mom and “wishing she was dead” I am 10 and do not. He forces my mom to explain the circumstances of my birth. My biological father bit her deeply where she still has the scar, and I am the product of my mother being raped. I think this maybe the origination of his hatred for me. We do not get along.
Eventually we move out of this State to move in with the man. He is living with his ex. I share a bed with his ex in the 2 bedroom shack we move into. His ex found the storage info that step-dad put all of our things in and cancelled payment. We lose everything we own and my baby pictures. I am told I will be put on a diet. I am given one crackers pack a day. Laying on the floor hurts with my ribs poking into the ground. I am giving hours of chores. I sink into schoolwork as it’s a way to get away. I read on the weekends and rarely come out. My door is open and sometimes they watch me in disgust. I’m like an ant in an ant farm. If my mom wasn’t behind him he’d shut the door and name-call me. I’m accused of being emotionally stupid, and useless. Name calling. I hate myself. Middle school. I have one friend, and I can sometimes escape to going there. My mom gets a job where he works, but “makes him leave” though he did it willingly. He claims being sickly, it’s just morbid obesity and subsequent symptoms. I now make every meal(including his breakfast and meal-prepping his lunch before I go to school) and clean the house for hours after school. I begin homework at 11 and am usually called in to be scolded for missing something chore-wise. I can stand there being admonished until 5am. Sometimes he makes things up or dramatizes them completely. If he found a single dirty spoon he’d claim I’m trying to kill them from bacteria and such. Hours later, I’d just admit to it (I wasn’t trying to do that). I become cold and shake from fear and tiredness. Sometimes I miss school because it’s the one thing I like, or they pull me out early to accuse me of stealing things that they misplaced. They would make me return sometimes in “granny” clothes. I am made to stay up all day and night after big fights where I lose my cool and talk back. I am not allowed to take the bus or get rides from friends, I walk 1.5 mile both ways to school. I am so tired always. He thinks mom is cheating on him at work. I always hear them argue about her not having sex with him. I’m threatened continuously when she’s not there that if I know something I’ll be on the street with her. I’m threatened by both of them I’ll be kicked out. I never have security. I tell my mom about these things he does while she is at work, meaning the hours of yelling and forcing me to agree to things I haven’t done. He once burnt me with boiling water while she was sleeping in the other room. She says if I have to choose between you and him I will always choose him. She tells me to apologize to him and I say no. They cut my hair unevenly in a bowl cut. I am alone. High school I begin smoking weed. I will come home and clean, to go to a friends house. I clean thoroughly so I can go without any issue from my parents. It is safer, and I can sleep. I begin working at 14. 3/4 of my paycheck goes to them. Wake up, make him breakfast, school, clean, work, homework, fight, sleep, repeat. Only recently have I stopped giving them money as my step-brother will give it. My step-brother asked me to stay and help them longer. He’s the bigger payout as he’s in the military, and I’m live in help. If anything he got out easy. DO NOT SHARE THIS PART IF I CAN GET BAKER ACTED. ASK HER FIRST. I go to a Gunshow with a friend. We live in the South, and v easy to obtain. I buy my first .38 for cheap out of a trunk. I debate everyday, and hide in my room reading daily. It feels better knowing I can get out if it keeps happening. I survive to 18 I start to stay with many men. If it means I can get out of the house, I do it. I sneak to PP and get on the pill. Despite this, my one friend I’d had since middle school invites me to a local music festival. I am not on the pill as I am not active, and a former teacher reached out on instagram. I feel weird about him, but I don’t want to go home. He pulls me into his car while she’s in the bar finding us a spot. She calls once but gives up. He forces himself on to me, and I need an abortion a month later. I am still guilty to this day. Mom loses job. No one in house is employed except me. Instead of asking pay-pig step brother I am told to step up. I drop out of school, and work two jobs. I began camming for extra money. I get into the church, and if my plans with a man or friend fell apart I’d use the code to get into adoration and sleep on the lobby couch hidden in the back. I’d set my alarm to go off before anyone came in and return home then. I stay up until 4/5 to cam before work at 6:30. I am talking to an old high school crush. He has divorced and we just talk. It’s the one thing tiding me over. Despite me paying the phone bill, they look up his number. They call him and ask him about our sexual relationship. He breaks it off, and I am now referred to daily as a whore. Name calling doesn’t hurt as badly anymore, but I am embarrassed they know about my romantic life. It was the one private and good thing I had going. Emotional abuse continues and mom hits me once as a 22 year old. I meet my now husband, and I move out at 23. Stepbrother tries to shame me to stay and take care of them longer. I move out of State using the excuse of me moving to better myself professionally. I am now beginning grad school and am happily married. I don’t think this is an all inclusive list, but I just need to put it down.
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2020.09.12 02:50 Nervous_Tomatillo_50 Cams sex house

So my Q-chimp friend told me recently that I'd been 'groomed' to believe certain things through the MSM etc (even though we've grown up in the same environment and all-of-a-sudden his eyes are apparently open).
We were talking about COVID-19 and other things and I said that Q or not, DJT was a climate change denier. My friend said that even back in the 5th century, people were conditioned to believe a certain thing and didn't know any better. What he was saying was that even though we now know the Earth isn't flat, people then thought so, which is exactly what's happened to me apparently. I'd been conditioned to accept whatever the world told me. I said to him that in the 20th century alone, there had been more scientific,medical and technological advancements than in any other time in history. I told him that he was essentially abandoning these ideas to follow an unproven and illogical ideology. For the record, over 97% of the scientific community believe in some kind of climate effect caused by man, mainly after the proliferation of processes spawned by the industrial revolution. Some of the 20th century's most effective breakthroughs were:
1) Electricity (which has spawned much of what we rely on today).
2) Nuclear technology (which, although there's been much attention placed on its weaponisation, is used in medicine, power, water desalination, agriculture and food).
3) Medical advancements: Surgery, sterilisation, vaccines, anti-biotics, therapeutics, diagnoses, X-Ray, patholgy and analysis.
4) Industrial: Automobiles, Air travel, radio, television, agricultural mechanisation, water supply/distribution.
5) Technology: Electronics, modern-day computing, robotics, AI and entertainment.
6) Science: Astronomy, Quantum physics, discovery of the human genome and DNA.
7) Communications, which can fit into almost any of the above.
These are just a few examples, and in order to adopt what my friend is talking about, I'd need to accept that these ideas are only conceptual. Well, I'm happy to accept variations in any of these theories, but not to abandon them completely as if a person in 600 BC would abandon the notion that the Earth is flat.
I think of Ricky Gervais having a fight on Twitter with an evangelical Christian who says to him 'your science won't help you when....blah....blah....blah.' And he responds with, 'well, it's helping you send me this message over the internet isn't it?'
It's just sad to see people who are otherwise intelligent just abandoning proven concepts and common sense just to follow some trope based in fantasy:
1) Legal scholars have weighed in on the 'sealed indictments' thing that Qanons believe is basically the Pandora's Box of impending justice for the evil doers (over 100,000) that will see Obama, the Clintons, Podesta and others 'face the music.' They've shown time and again how the number of sealed indictments has been misinterpreted by laymen and gone about explaining why the Q theory doesn't work. Still, Qanons persist.
2) Pizzagate. Yes, people still refuse to let this one go which basically says a lot about their state-of-mind. If Alex Jones has let it go, well.
3) Offenders being carted off to Guantanamo Bay. There's even conjecture about sending domestic terrorists caught on US soil being sent there. A US citizen radicalised online who then swears allegiance to ISIS can't even be sent there. Obama and Hilary aren't going there.
4) Summary executions of those prosecuted. There are 28 states in the US that have the death penalty. In 2010, the average time spent by a prisoner on death row was 15 years before they were executed. Many of these inmates were given a 'stay of execution', and some had their punishment reduced to imprisonment for life as an alternative. 31% of the US population have been polled as being vehemently against the death penalty. The notion that over 100,000 offenders will be rounded up, charged and summarily executed in quick time, is highly, highly implausible.
5) These offenders, even though mostly civilian, are to be tried at military tribunals. Okay, the US Supreme Court has said that trying civilians in any jurisdiction where the civil courts were functioning was unconstitutional. Some Qanons have speculated that the restrictions put in place as a result of COVID-19 could suggest that the civil courts weren't 'functioning', therefore civilians may face a military tribunal. You could honestly argue this with a Qanon all day long, but in short, it's not happening.
6) There is a high-level White House insider publicly disseminating cryptic intelligence on the internet for followers to decipher in order to assist the movement and be ready to assist others when 'the storm' arrives. Well, I've worked in military intelligence for 25+ years and that's just not how intelligence works. Additionally, much of what 'Q' has said has not come to pass. After this trend of failed prophesies, 'Q' quickly went about becoming more cryptic and broad in his posts, much like Nostradamus. His 'prophesies' were so broad in nature that you could superimpose or apply whatever world event you liked over them and they appeared to fit. Like a 'one size fits all' set of prophesies. I liken this to a psychic walking into a room full of people and saying something like 'I'm sensing the colour red.' Well, the chances are that somebody in the audience is either wearing an article of clothing, owns a car, or has a personal belonging that's red. Or it's their favourite colour. My point is that it's so broad, that it insulates itself from being openly challenged. This is way too convenient for me.
7) Democrats are engaging in child trafficking and other heinous crimes. Again, where do I start? Firstly, there are no complainants to this particular set of crimes. Yes, sex trafficking and child abuse are very real. But there's absolutely no evidence at all to support this claim. Qanons will try and find information that seemingly confirms their biases, but again, like the sealed indictments, they're misinterpreting numbers to suit their own agenda. In 2001, in the US there were apparently around 800,000 children that went missing. Q will have you believe that these are children who've been nefariously kidnapped and trafficked or whatever. They truth is that 99% of those children were safely returned to their homes. Many of these 'missing children' were taken as a result of custody disputes and later returned while others were runaways who were also returned. These numbers are also inclusive of kids who ran away more than once in that year which further inflates the numbers. Qanons try and paint this picture of children being stolen en masse by people in dark coloured vans 'buffalo Bill' style. While this type of thing does happen, the numbers are around 120 per year. Still 120 times more often than it should happen, but nowhere near the 800,000 they'd have you believe. And as for the satanic ritualistic part of it and harvesting blood etc, it's just too absurd for me. You only need to search for 'adrenochrome' on the internet and you'll find nothing. Why? Because it's not a recreational drug (only in fiction and theory). The truth is that it's a chemical naturally occurring in the human body and has the medicinal property of coagulating blood. It's available to buy for this purpose, but it's created and not harvested from the adrenal glands of a human.
8) Communications 'blackouts' preceding, or occurring concurrently with 'the storm'. This one has been alive and well for years, if not decades. The latest iteration of this conspiracy theory is that all normal means of communications (internet, phone) will be neutralised while forces deploy to make mass arrests. Firstly, this suggests that governments world-wide are conspiring to systematically run service providers into the ground to achieve this. People think that there's a lot of uncertainty as it is. Also, if communications are down, how are law enforcement expected to maintain command an control of arguably the largest police operation ever? With COVID, internet usage has exploded with many people forced to stay home (and so they've largely migrated to the internet, either for work or out of boredom). Even if this was being considered, it'd be near impossible to orchestrate. It's like something out of a zombie apocalypse movie (you're totally isolated and only able to receive news via a short-wave radio etc). The same with the mass arrests/protests trope, it's also been around for decades and never come to pass.
I know I'm preaching to the converted here, but my point is that I've done my 'research' and come up being, not enlightened or 'awakened,' but disappointed (in humanity). As I said, people seem all too prepared to abandon common sense in order to embrace this nonsense.
One thing I've learned from this Qanon journey of mine is that a little knowledge is a dangerous thing. Intellect also doesn't make you less susceptible or vulnerable when it comes to conspiracy theories. For example, the Youtube videos that Qanons find so compelling, to me are just some slickly produced videos (some call them documentaries, but I wouldn't go that far because they don't actually document anything) with some sciency language that sounds legitimate. It's definitely a case of the Dunning-Kruger effect. I recently saw a textbook case of this whereby a person clearly misunderstood what they were talking about. I'll let you decide:
'You can try and debunk this article, but you can't, it's been peer reviewed.' Firstly, 'peer reviewed' articles appear in journals (medical, scientific, scholarly) and undergo rigorous and scrutinous examination and review of the accuracy and validity of the content. The process is also undertaken to ensure that the methods undertaken by the author have been carried out appropriately to avoid and biases or compromises in the process, and that all due diligence has been carried out. In the scientific community in particular, this process is so scrutinous because new discoveries are few and far between. Also, the results, if incorrect and published, can have a lasting and sometimes negative effect on the world (in a 1998 paper, Dr Andrew Wakefield claimed to have discovered a link between vaccines and autism [in particular, the Measles, Mumps and Rubella or MMR vaccination]. This paper was later retracted as it was discovered that the process was compromised in several ways. Wakefield also lost credibility when he was later charged with fraud on unrelated matter. But not before anti-vaxers got hold of it as their 'golden nugget' as it was 'peer reviewed'. Since then, other scientists have conducted similar studies and found no link whatsoever, but that one compromise was enough to essentially start an entire movement based on a lie). So, my point on this is that a random Qanon, with no idea about the stringency of the peer review process (scientists and academics are subject to this process their whole careers and understand it well) has taken upon himself to get comfirmation bias from a few of his friends (his peers) and claim that it's been peer reviewed. Scientists who peer review a paper aren't simply agreeing with their friends on something, they're heavily scrutinising the person's claims to the best of their ability and training in order to assess the validity of it. So, let me just say this one time: if you're a garbage collector, a janitor or a taxi driver (no disrespect to any of these professions), then your peer group is other garbage collectors, janitors and taxi drivers. Peer review isn't designed for argumentative abstract things like conspiracy theories, it's scientific. And science demands much higher and complex standards of analysis than other fields. In my own personal experience, just submitting university papers that cite references, I've found that it's a far more in-depth process than just getting a few of your friends to agree with what you've written. And the style of writing is also heavily scrutinised.
The point of this weighty tome I've written here is to arm yourself with some points if confronted with somebody who makes any of the above claims who believes that they're armed with anything more than their faith and beliefs. Scientifically, and from the standpoint of common sense. They've truly got nothing.
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2020.09.11 22:13 smsussma Cams house sex

A little over a year ago my girlfriend, Charlotte Campbell, died in a fiery head-on collision with a drunk driver. As DD of the night, she was coming home from a college party after dropping off a few friends, when her tiny 2016 Toyota Camry was blindsided by an 18-wheeler driving on the wrong side of the highway. By the time police arrived at the scene, Charlotte’s body was charred and burned beyond recognition.
Turns out the guy’s BAC was .13. He’ll be in prison for life and I’ll never see my girlfriend again. The only thing that seemed to survive the crash besides the degenerate who killed her, was the relationship bracelet that I surprised her with on our 4 year anniversary. It was the left half of a heart in rose gold with her initials engraved into it, while mine was a matching piece that fit into hers like a deciphered puzzle. Her remains were cremated in an urn and buried in a plot at Saint Agatha Memorial Cemetery. The bracelet went with her, so that she always has a piece of me wherever she went.
A year later, after graduating college, I got my first job, and rented out my first home. I was still completely confused by my girlfriend’s sudden death. It’s mainly the irony of it all that seemed incredulous. My girlfriend was never a heavy drinker to begin with and was always smart behind the wheel. So, it seemed all too unsettling that her life was taken by a drunk driver. I eventually concluded that some things can never be fully explained. Constantly obsessing and overanalyzing Charlotte’s death was counterproductive and stalled the recovery process.
One night, a tinge of horniness swept over me. I hadn’t had the emotional capacity to date or have sex in over a year. That desire in me remained dormant. With this sudden wave of horniness came guilt. Guilt that I was craving sex without Charlotte, guilt that I was craving romance in my life without her, and guilt that I may be ready to start seeing other people. I was pretty hesitant about the idea at first but decided that maybe, it was time? Maybe, I was using my girlfriend’s death as an excuse to shield me from the fear of falling in love again and the potential grief of ever losing that person.
I decided to start small, something with no strings attached and required minimal emotional investment. I had never used dating apps before but quickly opened up to the idea. That night, while looking into some dating apps to download, I got an email notification about an app called “Curio.” Puzzled, I clicked on it. The email read, “Welcome to Curio! Are you CURIO-us to meet that special someone? Click the link below to download our free dating app.”
Again, I didn’t know too much about dating apps besides the standard Tinder and Bumble, so I decided to give this one a go. I clicked on the link, which redirected me to the app store to download. Its icon was a black square with a peculiar red “C” in its center. I double tapped on it and moments later I found myself filling out basic questions about myself. My name, my age, I even spent about 10 minutes digging through my camera roll to find six solid pictures of myself. Upon searching, I discovered a few old photos of Charlotte and I, that I had completely forgotten about.
Some of these included: a picture of us in straw hats and leis during our spring break trip to Cancun, a picture of us kissing in front of the Rockefeller Center Christmas Tree, and a picture of us in matching USA tees during a beer olympics game, junior year. That picture in Cancun brought back a vivid memory of us coming back to our hotel that night, belligerently drunk, and calling ourselves the “Tequila twins.” From then on, before going to any event involving alcohol, we would say to each other, “The Tequila Twins are back at it again!”
The nostalgia was all too fleeting. To avoid tearing up, I quickly rounded up a few solo pictures to post on my profile. Moments later, I was presented with some profile cards. Most of the women on this app were pretty average looking, 6’s at best. I was continuously swiping left for a while before I gave up and decided to maybe try again tomorrow. It was getting pretty late and I needed to be up early for work the next morning.
To my surprise, I received a notification from Curio the following day that read, “Congratulations! You have a new match.” I was slightly confused by this, namely because I had no recollection of swiping right on anybody last night. However, I was pretty tired and assumed that I could have easily swiped right on somebody without even paying attention. Curious to see who this mystery woman was, I double tapped on the notification and was redirected to her profile.
However, I was horrified to see that this woman appeared to be a carbon copy of Charlotte. Upon further examination, this person appeared to share her same name and age as well. Hastily, I surveyed her profile and skimmed through her photos with a quickness. As these pictures became very familiar to me, my face grew hot with anger.
What sicko creates a fake profile of a dead person? I thought to myself.
Before I could message this asshole my two cents, I was interrupted by the user.
“Hey :)” they said.
“Whoever is doing this, please take this profile down immediately! You think this is funny??? What kind of fucking psychopath does something like this?” I shot back.
“Cam, it’s me :) Char.”
I could feel my heart throbbing out of my chest as beads of sweat spawned across my forehead.
My hands shook as I messaged back, “Please, fucking stop this now!”
“But I miss my tequila twin :((((”
At this point, I could barely breathe. I felt myself numbing out of reality as a sudden ringing in my ears took over my senses.
“Who the fuck is this?!”
“Cam, it’s me. Char! Please talk to me, babe :[”
Instantly, I shut off the app. I was so caught up in the madness of it all that I hadn’t realized that I was running late for work. I quickly threw on some clothes and rushed out of the house, writing off this mishap as some sick, twisted, joke.
As I arrived to work 10 minutes late, I was chastised by my verbally abusive manager for my tardiness.
“This is the second time this month, Cameron! Don’t let it fucking happen again!” he spat.
“Yes, sir.” I muttered, returning to my desk in a huff.
“Ahh don’t take it personally, man.” comforted my co-worker, Rob. “Big Ted’s just angrier than usual because of the um....divorce.” he whispered.
“Divorce?” I scoffed. “Isn’t he on his like, third wife already?”
“Fourth, actually.” Rob corrected. “First wife, cheated. Second wife got deported back to Russia. Third wife had a heroin overdose. And I think this one was just a rebound tired of his shit.”
“I hate corporate America.” I jeered, turning on my desktop. “By the way, have you ever heard of that new dating app, Curio?”
“Nope, I’m more of a Tinder type of guy. But now I’m...CURIO. HA, get it?! Curio...curious?” Rob joked.
I chuckled nervously while scrolling through my work email, hoping that my corporate job would calm me down and take my mind off of things. As I refreshed my inbox, a new email appeared from Curio about how I received another notification from the app. Again, I was a little confused about how this app somehow got access to my work email and was sending me notifications through it. Hesitantly, I clicked on the notification which revealed a picture message from “Charlotte.”
It was a photo of my back porch with a note that read: “The new place looks great...without me :/ We were supposed to move in together. Left a little gift at your door since you don’t want to talk to me anymore...”
While reading that note, I could feel my heart picking up speed as a wave of anxiety crashed over me. Clumsily, I stumbled right out of my desk chair and backed away from my computer in horror. As I fumbled around the floor for support, Rob helped me back up on my feet.
“Whoa, you okay man? You don’t look so good.” Rob asked, concerned.
“I-I gotta go, it’s an emergency.” I replied. Quickly, I shut off my desktop and rushed out of the building with fear in one hand and my jacket in the other. The ride to my house seemed to drag on forever. Yet, by the time I parked into my driveway my heart was thumping wildly out of my chest and I would do anything to be right back in my office.
I grabbed an old baseball bat from my trunk, and slowly approached the front porch. I was surprised to find the door still locked. Nonetheless, I searched every nook and cranny of my house for any intruders and thankfully, I was alone. Everything appeared exactly as I had left it and nothing was stolen.
I took a deep breath and laughed a bit. I couldn’t believe that I was allowing some internet troll to drive me nuts.
My location on the app is on, they could’ve easily discovered my location on Google Maps, taken a screenshot of my back porch, and sent me that message to try to mess with me. I reasoned.
Thus, I decided to return back to work and locked up on my way out. As I exited my home through the back porch, I was interrupted by a light crunching noise beneath my foot. I paused and lifted the heel of my shoe to discover a shimmering object dangling from it. After retrieving this mysterious object, my heart sunk upon closer examination.
It appeared to be a rose gold bracelet with the left half of a heart swaying from it, and the initials “C.C” engraved into the pendant. I twisted my wrist, revealing the matching piece. I suddenly realized that I hadn’t taken it off since the funeral. I fit my half of the pendant into the other piece, revealing a perfectly mended heart. Dazed and confused, I shook my head and abandoned the bracelet as quickly as I retrieved it. It landed back onto the doormat as I rushed back to my car with tears in my eyes.
Swiftly, I reached into my back pocket for my phone and aggressively began typing out a message to “Charlotte.”
“Please tell me who the fuck this is, right now?!”
I received a reply back in seconds.
“Cam, why are you mad at me? :( I miss you so much and this is how you treat your girlfriend?”
“This isn’t fucking funny! I’m filing a report.”
Quickly, I reported the account for “false identity”, unmatched the user, and deleted the app from my phone, altogether. I ended up crying in the front seat of my car for a bit before mustering up the strength to drive back to work. Luckily, Big Ted was out for the rest of the day at a press conference. So, I didn’t have to suffer any consequences for running out of the building with no explanation.
By the end of the day I felt pretty weighed down by stress and grief that I ended up passing out on my couch for a few hours. I was eventually woken up by the melody of my mobile ringtone. I checked my lockscreen for the caller ID, which displayed Rob’s contact.
I picked up and yawned into the speaker, “Hey, man. What’s up?”
“Yo, Cam! Hope I’m not interrupting anything, was just wondering what the name of that dating app was that you were talking to me about earlier?” he asked. “I’m getting so tired of these same old bullshit apps.”
I stretched a bit and scratched my head. As I perched myself up on the couch, I replied, “Yeah, it’s called ‘Curio.’ C-U-R-I-O.”
There was a brief pause as Rob quietly echoed the spelling into the speaker while tapping away into the app store search bar.
“Hm...that’s weird.” he said.
“What?” I asked.
“Can’t seem to find it anywhere. You sure I got the spelling right?”
“Yeah, it’s C-U-R-I-O. Curio.” I repeated.
“Hm. Yeah, bro. Can’t seem to find it anywhere. No worries, though. This phone’s pretty old. Could just be a glitch or something. Anyway, I’ll see you tomorrow. Sleep tight!”
Suddenly, I was stricken with curiosity and began searching up the app on Google. Something, I probably should’ve done much sooner. I was surprised to find absolutely no information on the app, despite constantly receiving emails from the company and having downloaded it onto my phone. I even tried different variations of spelling and keywords to no avail. Defeated, I dragged myself up to bed and found solace in the fact that Curio wasn’t my problem anymore.
Yet, I was horrified to discover the app reinstalled onto my phone the next morning. I had also received another “Congratulations! You have a new match.” notification. After double tapping on the alert, I was redirected to the profile of my match. My face hardened and lost its color after realizing who it was. I had somehow rematched with “Charlotte” overnight.
“How?” I muttered to myself. Moments later I received a video message from the user with a note. As I squinted my eyes to get a better look, it appeared to be a video of my dimly lit room. The camera quality was terrible but whoever was filming approached my bed at such a distance, that the light of their camera flash fully illuminated the side of my face as I was sleeping in my bed last night.
Beneath it, the user wrote, “You’re so handsome when you sleep ;)”
At this point, It felt as if I was losing touch with reality. It was time to take this matter to authorities. I sped to the police station before work and after arriving, I aggressively slammed my phone down in front of two officers at the front desk.
“Hi, I believe I am being stalked by someone pretending to be my dead girlfriend on a dating app.” I blurted.
The two officers exchanged befuddled looks before one of them spoke up. “Slow down, son. Can you tell me your name and what app you’re even talking about?” he asked.
“Yeah, My name’s Cameron Hill. My girlfriend, Charlotte Campbell, passed away a little over a year ago and somebody on this app, ‘Curio’ is harassing me and pretending to be her. I think they know where I live. They’ve been sending pictures and videos of me, as well as the inside and outside of my house.” I replied, sternly. I unlocked my phone for them and opened the app.
Both officers narrowed their eyes as they inspected the screen for a few moments.
“You ever try Tinder, kid?” chuckled one of them—a stocky man who was suffering from a pretty extreme case of premature balding. I didn’t laugh. The goofy expression on his face faded rather quickly.
“Yeah, I don’t know what’s going on here but this app keeps freezing up and closing before I can even see anything.” said the other officer—a better looking version of his partner.
“You probably don’t have nothing to worry about, though. Usually these type of cyberbullying scenarios end up being carried out by a bunch of punks behind the scenes.”
I narrowed my eyes at him. “Cyberbullying? Sir, with all due respect. I believe that I am being stalked and hunted.”
“Listen, kid. If you experience any more threats, you have our number.”
I glared angrily at both of them, before snatching my phone and storming out of there. A complete waste of my time. I arrived at work five minutes late and received yet another verbal beating by my boss.
“You’re so fucking unqualified for this job, it isn’t even funny. If it weren’t for your rich ass father buying your way into every opportunity in life, you would be living on the streets. Lately, you’ve been offering absolutely nothing to this company. STOP SHOWING UP LATE!” he spat. I grit my teeth and forced a calm response, “Yes, sir. Won’t happen again.”
Luckily, work flew by and I was home before I knew it. Lately, the mental exhaustion of my life put me to sleep on my couch as soon as I got home. However, I found myself waking up a few hours later to a Curio message notification from “Charlotte.”
“It’s been three days, Cam. I miss you so much :/ Can we please meet up tonight?” she asked.
I then offered a speedy reply. “I don’t know who this is...But Charlotte Campbell, the person who you are impersonating is dead. Gone. Buried at Saint Agatha’s Cemetery miles and miles away from here. Now please, leave me alone.”
I then closed my eyes and massaged my temples for a few moments before my phone buzzed again. It was a much more grim message this time.
“You have until 9 PM tonight to come find me, or I’ll drag you to Hell with me.”
Once again, that wave of anxiety and dread swept over me as my heart thumped out of my chest. I took a second to think, before pulling out Google. I attempted to do a second search into the app where I was left with no answers. I then went back into my email and discovered that the original sender was anonymous and out of my domain. I even attempted to email this anonymous sender. However, the message failed and was apparently an “invalid email address.”
As I reexamined the first email, featuring the Curio ad, I noticed some very fine print at the bottom of the email, which read, “If your CURIO-sity is fulfilled. Please, pass this message along to another friend who lost a lover ❤️🖤We’re here to piece love back together.” I took a moment to think hard about what this all meant, but by the end of the night I had a feeling that I wouldn’t be hearing from “Charlotte.” ever again.
I woke up the next morning, very much alive and not in Hell. When I checked the lockscreen of my phone, all notifications from Curio had ceased and the app had somehow been wiped clean off of my phone, including any emails sent about them. It was as if the app had never even existed.
I arrived at work in high spirits and surprisingly, so did my boss. He even apologized for yelling at me the past few days and saying all of those mean things. He said that we have to, “Hold on tight to those who are there for us and to never take them for granted.” Since that day, nobody has seen him since. There was no formal goodbye or leave of the company. Theodore McClow, or “Big Ted” as we called him in the office, has been missing for months and hasn’t been found since that day.
Since then, I’ve moved to a different town with a different job. I’m much happier here and I’ve even met someone new without the help of dating apps. However, to anyone who gets an email about an app called “Curio.” PLEASE, DO NOT DOWNLOAD THE APP. Do as the fine print says...
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2020.09.08 12:33 zoemhall House sex cams

I [26/f] found Chaturbate on my boyfriend’s [27/m] phone when we first started dating. I was upset because I personally have deep rooted insecurities about my self physically and don’t feel comparable. He said that he would delete his account (he was paying money, tipping girls, chatting etc.) and that he hadn’t used it since we had met. I made it very clear that I thought it was cheating from the beginning and he said he would make an effort to delete all of the cam girls from his phone and delete the account. He has been very concerned with what was on my phone because of prior boys from Tinder and some of my exes were still there (I was not flirting with them AT ALL) and I deleted/unfollowed all the guys I had ever communicated with romantically because I wanted him to feel comfortable and confident that we were together and I am committed. He did not do the same. He showed very little effort in deleting things whereas I deleted EVERYTHING. All while he was projecting his past onto me and the cheaters he’s dated in the past. I have never and would never cheat. Not just on him but on anyone. I recently walked in on him with a bunch of the browsers up for Chaturbate. He quickly exited out and said that he was trying to figure out how to delete the account (which is literally at the bottom of the screen and took me 2 seconds to figure out lol) I was upset yes, but did not break up with him and tried my best to trust that he was telling me the truth. I said I would stay at my house for a couple of days or however long it would take for him to finally clean up his phone and computer the best he can... he swore to me he deleted it all and his phone was clean after being apart for less than 24 hours. In the meantime he had been saying hurtful things through text and I was defensive and responded with hurtful things too. Calling him an addict... etc. but when I got back to his house and looked through his phone I went to his email and logged into his Chaturbate account. He hadn’t deleted it. And instead tipped several women some money and even said “BECAUSE I miss you :)” to one of them. I do not shame sex workers or think any less of them. But I do not want my SO funding them when I am more than willing to do/send anything to my partner. He lied to my face. The part that hurts me the most is that he told one he missed her. I feel betrayed and like he cheated on me. Not to mention none of the girls (white/petite) resemble me or my body type (asian/curvy). I’m truly hurt. He said that he didn’t masturbate to it but I don’t know if I believe that. I feel like he is just lying over and over. After roughly 10 hours of fighting he talked me into giving him another chance because I truly do love him... but the words he said to them keep running through my head. I might have low self esteem, but I am a more “desired” female. I have been asked to make an OnlyFans and have not had a difficult time finding dates when single... But it IS hard to find a man I feel a deep connection with and love. Which I thought I had. I told him I have 0 trust now and expect him to go to therapy. He says he doesn’t know why he said what he said... but it’s eating at me. He said he loves me more than he has ever loved anyone and that he is committed to making a change and proving it to me. I just don’t want to be a fool.
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