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2011.06.20 23:46 Alexanderr Get a new grip on life - NF's official Reddit-hosted forum

We host rebooting challenges in which participants ("Fapstronauts") abstain from pornography and masturbation for a period of time. Whether your goal is casual participation in a monthly challenge as a test of self-control, or whether excessive masturbation or pornography has become a problem in your life and you want to quit for a longer period of time, you will find a supportive community and plenty of resources here.
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2020.11.29 21:50 NewMan4Life Hidden camara porn videos

I'm on day 1 of nofap again. I just joined this group and was previously looking/on the nofap subreddit. As you may know, being a muslim, the nofap subreddit does talk about nofap but it also talks about topics permissibly that are haraam in Islam. That's why I joined this group. Since I was almost 13, I fell into masturbation and got addicted. Slowly it worsened and worsened at 14 or 15 I discovered porn. I fell deeper. At 16 I decided to quit and growing up in the U.S., a lot of people think of masturbation as permissible. I went for about 2 weeks and failed. I told my "friends" who weren't muslim that I was going to stop and they just laughed. Now I'm 21. I've done really bad things and may Allah forgive me and all of us. Since I turned 19 I decided that I wanted to eliminate this habit from my life. I swore to never look at porn or anything revealing but eventually I fell again. I was almost going to do zina with someone but I stopped myself alhamdulillah. I'm having trouble with stopping masturbation. My max streak has been 21 days. My family and relatives see me as a good person but they do not know about this hidden demonic thing that I have been doing for a long time. I feel guilty and frustrated. No one knows about this except you guys and Allah and our prophet(PBUH). I feel guilty that I am doing this. I feel guilty because when Islam started, many sahabba were martyred. Hazrat Ali was martyred. Imam Hussain (a.s) and Hussan (a.s) were martyred. There were so many martyrs that died for the sake of Allah and Islam so that there would be more believers. Look at our situation now! I sit and masturbate and did things that were Haraam. Allah forgive me, forgive me, forgive me! May Allah forgive all muslims! May he help those who are trying to quit this bad habit and may he make us good ummah that fit the character of our beloved prophet(PBUH) and the real character of muslims. Ameen
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2020.11.29 05:50 Bubbly_gurl Camara videos hidden porn

So a few months into dating I told my now husband that I feel uncomfortable with either of us watching porn because I see it as disloyal and hurtful. He agreed to this and told me that he had a porn addiction, so I gave him time and eventually he told me he stopped watching it and deleted all his dropboxes/onlyfans/Snapchat girls.
I trusted that he actually stopped doing it because (now looking in retrospect) he hid it really well. After we were married and had our first child I found out that he had actually still been watching porn through reddit (though there could have been more I just don’t know). He wouldn’t talk to me about it, but said he’d stop looking at it through reddit. He asked me to compromise, and said he’s stop watching porn if he could still watch hentai...and though I thought it was a bit odd, at least it wasn’t real life people so I agreed to that.
I still feel hurt that he watches hentai and looks at naked busty anime chicks and related things, but these are things I deal with internally.
Fast forward some time, I am now pregnant with baby number two. I have had to go into the bathroom a couple times and noticed he was on reddit and felt a bit sus. I did the bad thing and went through his reddit. He wasn’t following any pornographic (not even hentai ones), but in his hidden there was hundreds of pages of porn.
Obviously this made me quite upset, so I confronted him and asked why is all this stuff in your hidden. And he said to me “it just comes up in my newsfeed and I hide it”.
I know this is a lie. I scrolled through every feed possible on his reddit, popular, all etc and none of the stuff he watches pops up. Firstly, every day would be a different series of 10-20 videos from the same (so he clearly clicks on a page and scrolls through it then hides them all). Secondly, the hidden section rotates through about 12 different (a different one each day from the 12 that he watches) none of which appear in his feeds when the odd NSFW porn video pops up.
I was very non judgemental and just asked for the truth and said we could come up with a plan so we both feel happy, but he keeps denying it and saying he doesn’t watch it and that it’s all hidden from news feed. I told him just downvote instead of hiding it so it doesn’t appear as much and he said no.
Most of all, I hate the lying.
HELP! 1. Could he be telling the truth? 2. Wtf do I do? 3. Why does he still watch porn even though he acknowledges that it’s wrong in the context of our relationship?
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2020.11.29 01:37 shroomsthroaway Trip Report - 4.6g Albino Shrooms w/ Lemon Tek (Heroic Dose)

TL;DR - I tripped like I've never tripped before, created music out of silence in my head, met Spirits/Entities like the Goddess/Spirit of Sex, reevaluated my life, relived my childhood, became God, was trip drunk, saw cartoon water, and in the end feel at peace.
Hey there y'all! I'm going to be starting antidepressants (Fluoxetine/Prozac) soon because microdosing psilocybin unfortunately hasn't been working for me, and I wanted to go out with a bang before choosing to stop tripping and working with antidepressants. This last Monday, I decided that I'd do a heroic dose and trip on 4.6gs of shrooms without any music and in the darkness of my bedroom. I prefer to trip on my own as other people's energies usually distract me from my own experience. My dealer had a new strain of Albinos and I honestly had no clue what to expect. I've tripped close to 7 or 8 times before, but always stuck around 2-3gs as my max and wanted complete immersion, if not complete ego death.
I started off by grinding all of my shrooms and doing a lemon tek (I like to add in orange juice to the lemon juice once done and I keep the ground mushrooms just in case there's any psilocybin left that wasn't broken down). I hadn't had any breakfast that day and did this around noon. Honestly, it was a little difficult to down as there was so much ground mushroom, but nonetheless I powered through. I went into my room and tidied up beforehand so I wouldn't stress myself out from any clutter, and then closed all the lights and laid in bed to watch some Game Grumps compilations while I waited for my journey to come to me. I started to feel the come up pretty soon, maybe 15ish minutes in and it almost felt like I didn't know when to expect the come up to stop. As soon as I began to feel the body tingles, I put away my phone and closed my eyes as I laid in bed. Like usual, I was beginning to have those deep inner monologues and discussions with myself that you have while tripping, and was amazed at how I began to perceive things with a lack of music and sight. The mumbled words and laughter that would involuntarily come out of my mouth as a result of my thoughts would echo in my head, and a cosmic type of music played in my head composed of ringing and pitches. In the weirdest way possible, I created music in its literal absence -- I can't quite explain what it's like but sound waves seemed more intuitive and a part of my living experience. There was this constant ring tone, almost akin to what I imagine having tinnitus is like, and I both was fascinated and tormented by it. This internal music, if you will, continued to play while I explored my thoughts. I found myself recounting the parts of my life that I've missed for a long while - like my friends from back at home (currently away in another city but same state for College) who I haven't spoken to for a while or my grievances with Coronavirus and not being able to combat depression via social activities/relationships. I felt this abundant love for so many people - such as my girlfriend and my parents (whom I've had a complicated relationship with), and most surprisingly the friends who I cherish deep down but haven't been on the forefront of my mind because of 1) COVID 2) Depression and its inevitable out-of-sight-out-of-mind mindset. I can't recall much properly, but I remember there being a lot of CEVs (Closed Eye Visuals) and the visuals and inner music interrupting my thoughts intermittently. Early on in the trip, after one of these interruptions, I found myself meeting and talking to other entities. I spoke with the Spirit or Goddess of Sex and she demanded that I respect her (I'm currently battling porn addiction and have wanted to kick the habit for years), and I was later met with another spirit whose name was Earl. I have no recollection of my conversation with Earl, but merely that we briefly spoke. This was the beginning of truly believing that there is an external presence in this world - although I believe in the Universe being the source of all life and spirituality, I didn't have concrete beliefs or felt any beliefs strongly. I next recall revisiting my childhood and reliving years of my life as I uncovered memories that were locked away for years, hidden and forgotten in the depths of my mind. This was especially nice as my depression has caused me to lose the ability to remember a majority of my life (truly feels like I have amnesia or dementia at times), and I relived the years of my life from long ago with my current knowledge and emotional understanding. I was able to reassure my inner child at times that it was going to be okay, even as I felt and relived the uncertainty and the insecure thoughts that a younger me once held. I saw myself relive the day to day of elementary school and almost reconnect with each of my teachers (from all school levels) - almost in a way to try to inspire my current self into learning and becoming busy with the various subjects that I was once taught. This went on for what felt like years, and eventually led to a self analysis of myself and my current life. I found myself laughing often and then in discomfort before being stunned in thought again. By this point, my thoughts were going at lightning speed and I could truly feel it in my head - almost like a slightly welcome headache. The constant thoughts and restlessness made me uncomfortable and over the course of the aforementioned events/experiences, I had been tossing and turning in bed under my covers (to ensure total darkness) and had somehow taken off my shirt in the process. In an attempt to comfort myself, I decided to call my girlfriend who was visiting Houston for the Holidays and had left a few days prior. Although hearing her voice and talking to her was a little comforting, I also quickly realized that I sounded a little distressed and I didn't want her to worry - as she would ask if I was okay and I'd reply half lying "yes" but with a large pause only with my breathing there as a remaining answer. It was a little distressing trying to communicate to her, but she knows the terrain and understood I was going through a lot. After a short exchange, I told her that I loved her and went about to the next phase of this bizarre trip.
I next began to view my life and what parts I liked and what I missed, and this cycle of analysis and feedback, with the spiritual torment occurring in the background, slowly led me to experience what I believe was ego death - but in such an intriguing fashion. I began recounting my life and the lives of those I encountered and I examined every religious belief I know of all faiths and at one point felt true to my core -- that I am God. I am the universe and all of its energy and living in this experience, but as is everyone and all things to exist. I would laugh to myself and whispered that "I'm actually crazy" multiple times over and over, but held the belief that I had relived all of life for all that I knew in my life and reliving the stories of various Prophets from the Old Testament & Quran (After some research, I've come to realize that what I experienced was very much indeed similar to if not the beliefs surrounding the Egg Theory.) I had felt this core belief that this life was a lie and only but a mere facade and even my own death right then and there would be meaningless as I would rejoin the universe. I felt myself living the many struggles that ancient religions sought to capture and underwent a whole Epic (like the Epic of Gilgamesh). I truly believed that I finally was able to see behind the Matrix and tasted a bite of the Red Pill. It was the most surreal experience that I have ever had to date. The ringing of this pitch which I could not get out of my head and the echoing of real sound, but with the constant chatter of my mind which seemed almost too fast for me to keep up with and feel comfortable in - this tormenting hell that was both amazing and treacherous all at the same time went on for what was hours.
Before I realized it, I think almost 5 or 6 hours had passed into my trip and the chain of mental chitchat and overwhelming thoughts had suddenly passed. I felt mentally sober, although aware that the rest of my body was very well tripping. I expected my trip to be ending soon, but little did I know that there was still much to handle. At this point of my trip, I felt VERY drunk. I began to feel this really bad headache and I felt really uncomfortable in bed - likely because outside of the covers it was chill in my room and too warm under them. I was also EXTREMELY thirsty and needed to pee. I decided that I'd go to the bathroom and give my body some peace. Going to pee was relieving, although I still felt odd. The lemon and orange juice was not sitting well in my stomach and the acid reflux was hitting. I attempted to throw up at times, but to no avail. I eventually drank some water, but it only made my stomach feel bloated and even worse. I then decided to take a shower, as that usually grounds me on my trips. I typically don't have too many strong OEVs (Open Eye Visuals) - but the water that hit me as I showered looked like cartoon droplets. As I saw the water race down my shower curtain liner, it truly looked like anime water that had come to life in front me. The same for the droplets that pooled on my skin as I sat at the base of my tub. As I looked up at the shower, I laughed as it looked like an album cover. I stayed in the shower for a bit to relax the uneasy feeling. In the process of getting out of the shower, I accidentally pulled down my shower rod (when I tell you I felt drunk as hell, I'm not kidding). I eventually got dressed and laid back in bed to distract myself with some more Game Grumps compilations and rode out of the rest of the trip (a good hour or so after that point) until I was sober enough to drive and buy myself some canes (because why not and for a lack of any easily available nutritious meals).
All things considered, it was a pretty crazy trip and once that I'm thankful to have had and to experience. I think out of this, I want to go sober for a while and try to be healthier. I feel a little more spiritual and despite that the trip was almost like a self induced hell, I want to be kinder to myself overall, feel at peace and feel optimistic about the future. Hope that this trip report was of some amusement or help to others. I'm truly unsure of the potency of the albino shrooms I got, so I can't say if it's the same as taking 4.6gs of normal cubes or if it was a lot more haha. Either way, stay safe kids ;)
Wishing y'all the best,
A.S.
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2020.11.28 23:20 yuutsunashojo My Uncles Abused Me and My Family Didn't Seem to Care Much.

This all started when I was 9 or 10. We used to have this uncle called Bulugto and he would have us sit on his lap like he's Santa. The happening of it all is still vivid in my mind that I still carry it until now that I am old as hell. He would then just sit idly while swinging his legs back and forth while we're sitting in his lap and he would lean forward on our shoulders and hug me and my aunt (who has the same age as I do) from behind. I know what was happening and everybody seemed like they didn't have a clue and thought everything was normal. I don't even know why I knew what was happening.
He would kiss us on your necks, cheeks, backs, and even on our butt and make those fart noises when he blows on our bellies. It wasn't fun for me but for my aunt, she was laughing and giggling her ass off.
So months passed, we found out he was beating his wife to death and they got rid of him.
Then, when I was in highschool, I lived with my uncles again. This was a year full of hell for me. I was 11 turning 12. They of course were the people responsible for taking my innocence and also took advantage of me. Told me they'll kill my little brother and send me away. They made me watch a couple of child porn and told me that's what they'll do to me. They'd even pimp me out on their friends. Those were my two other uncles, Paul and Michael. Their identities do not deserve to be hidden, fucking animals. Before when I was younger, I thought, why would they only do it to me? Why won't they do it on their other siblings? That's when I realized, I bloomed too early. My chests were growing, my hips were taking their shape while my aunt still looks younger than me. I don't know why but when I was younger I wished they'd do the same to her, I know it was bad but I was a kid trying to save my own ass then I realized how bad I wanted her to be just like me when one night she covered for her brother, Paul. I remembered him trying to put his genital up my behind I remember it hurting so much and I notice she was just watching Resident Evil outside. I could see her from the curtains. It was actually fucked up for her to pretend she doesn't know who went in because the door was open like Satan's hell hole and it just has a curtain over it covering the room. I was really sleepy and everything was a blurr, I just saw a black figure standing next to me and I know who he was because I recognise his smell. That nasty-ass cologne. And bullshit she doesn't know it was her brother because I remember hearing them talking as he ran outside.
When I woke up, my grandma was surprised that there was a blood stain on my shorts. She told me to change my pants because I have my period. And so, I did. I went to my aunt and asked her if Paul went in the room last night, of course she denied it and continued watching Sailormoon. I went to my grandma and told her everything that happened last night and how her daughter denied the fact that her brother went in the room and also everything that they have been doing to me for the past year. I EVEN WROTE IT DOWN ON THE LAST LEAF OF MY ENGLISH NOTEBOOK, EVERYTHING THEY DID TO ME AND HOW THEY TREATED ME LIKE I'M A FUCKING ANIMAL AND HOW THEY THREATENED ME THAT THEY'LL GUT MY BROTHER LIKE A PIG. She asked me where the notebook was and she just slapped me.
She told me, I was lying and no one should know about this or else my uncles will get in to trouble.
I promised to remain quiet to just to not receive any more beating.
I called my mom to pick me up.
My grandma gave me one last glance and hand signed me to zip it.
Of course, I didn't.
I told her everything.
Her reaction?
She cried. She didn't even consider reporting them. She just cried. The whole time I was trying to protect myself and my brother and how brave I was for telling her what happened to me, I wasn't quiet. I was very vocal of what happened to me. I never stopped, I just kept on telling her every detail of the abuse from start to finish.
She just said she was sorry, she cried and brushed it off.
My heart broke.
I told my brother everything.
And since then, my brother used to hug me every night until I fall asleep.
I cannot trust anyone.
Not even my own family.
I was helpless.
I was scared to love a man due to the fact that the aftermath of the abuse was still in my head.
Until one day, I met the guy who I thought I'll marry. My uncle even messaged me one time before Christmas. Told me I should go there and I should be his Christmas gift. My boyfriend was furious. He was ready to rip their throats out but he's far away.
I thought at least someone cares for me.
But you know in the end, they all leave.
So he left like everybody did.
I never thought PTSD was real until I would wake up from nightmares, get scared easily, flinch when I think someone is about to hurt me. Jesus, it was hard. It always has been.
I hope you learn something from this because I, myself haven't learned shit. IT'S OKAY TO BE SCARED. IT'S OKAY NOT TO TRUST SOMEONE SO EASILY. TRUST IS EARNED, NOT GIVEN. Never forget to protect yourselves at any cost. No one can save you but yourself. If you have experienced something like this, be vocal about your feelings, stop hiding behind the shadows and let someone shed a light on the darkness you're going through. I am here for you.
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2020.11.28 17:48 ajchafe Camara videos hidden porn

So I started running a cyberpunk sandbox game and the world map is this subway system that I made.https://drive.google.com/file/d/1NCfpFXTW7VmmO58pVZ2NMapXsL6O7X9S/view?usp=sharing
Now I need random encounters that they might have when traveling around the city by subway!

  1. Local thugs shaking down passengers, telling them they have to "pay the toll." u/ajchafe
  2. Police drones performing random scans for drugs or other illicit contraband. u/ajchafe
  3. A very loud, very annoying, augmented reality busker shares your train car. u/ajchafe
  4. Stray dogs who use the subway to get into the inner city where food is easier to find. u/ajchafe
  5. A group of corporate salary men, all dressed in exactly the same suits and carrying the exact same briefcase. u/ajchafe
  6. A young punk jacks his deck into the trains loud advertising screens, taps a few keys on the keypad, and downloads a packet of info from the terminal. u/EmeraldJonah
  7. A train-goer's implants get hacked, causing them untold embarrassment (arm randomly flips persons off, eyes cause the person to see hallucinations, breast implants randomly adjust size, leg implants begin doing a Russian hop dance, etc.) u/snakebite262
  8. A young ganger accidentally drops a handgun far bigger than it needs to be. They pick it back up and stash it in their pants. u/snakebite262
  9. A person sits in the corner of the train, dressed like a quest giver in a fantasy RPG. u/snakebite262
  10. A drone randomly spirals around the heads of passengers. It eventually lands on a hacker's arm, who pats it like a pet parrot. u/snakebite262
  11. A cosplay convention is in town, and the train is filled with weirdly dressed individuals. u/snakebite262
  12. A one-armed man "asks for everyone's attention" and gives a sob story before they pull out a hat and ask for donations. He can later be seen in a bathroom putting on his arm-implant. u/snakebite262
  13. Some small time rapper offers free flash-drives of their "mixtape". It contains SO MANY VIRUSES. u/snakebite262
  14. A junkie sits at the corner of a platform, debating their next step in life. u/snakebite262
  15. A roly-poly bat faced girl offers a variety of drugs, stems, and other pleasures for the right price. u/snakebite262
  16. A citizen in bright red overalls asks if you want to hear about "Friend Computer". u/snakebite262
  17. A group of LARPers are using a digital program to transform the tunnels into an RPG Fantasy. They're annoying, but they stay off the tracks. u/snakebite262
  18. A man, dressed as a vampire orders a triple-venti cappuccino from a underground coffee shop. He's getting looks from the other customers. u/snakebite262
  19. A manic pixie dream girl can be seen trying to woo a corpo into quitting their job. She either succeeds, and drags them off to never be seen again, or fails and leaves in a huff. u/snakebite262
  20. A disheveled and hungover looking fellow asks you the time as you get to the next stop. He seems surprised at the result and runs off the train as soon as the doors open. As he leaves you realize he looks totally unaugmented. u/CaptainGockblock
  21. The lights go out for a moment as they sometimes do, but this time a man dressed head to toe in a black special ops gear appears in the middle of the train and quickly offs a seemingly random passenger. u/CaptainGockblock
  22. You notice a strange vending machine on a platform you regularly visit. It seems to be an antique stocked with brands that haven’t existed in years. u/CaptainGockblock
  23. Three transhumanist gangers seem to be sizing each other up, violence can break out any time, especially as the next stop is an intersection of two of the gang's territory, and sure to have reinforcements. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  24. A holographic horde of rats swarms the carriage, people with vision altering implants seem to be especially terrified for whatever reason. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  25. An eccentric fellow is proudly showing off his imported implants, possibly so exotic they might just be illegal, and unbeknownst to him, there's a jealous ganger with little to lose nearby. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  26. A man is apparently so fixated with his laserblade switchknife, he accidentally misses his stop, and becomes enraged and violent that nobody warned him. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  27. A little old woman seemingly very out of place in the subway, dressed like an old time farmer, straw hat and all. 50/50 chance she's secretly packing her trusted heat cannon (also used to warm up leftovers when on it's lowest setting). u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  28. A ratty robed mutant freak, laughing maniacally, lets loose a swarm of cybernetically enhanced winged and stinging insects. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  29. The lights suddenly blink out, there's a loud wet stab sound, and when they're back on, the faint visage of an cloaked assassin steps through to the next car. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  30. A group of girls enter the car, obnoxious and talkative, though as they speak, their words are rife with the click of their sharpened metal teeth. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  31. Police drones mistakenly terminate a seemingly innocent man that only happens to match the same clothing as a wanted criminal poster conveniently nearby. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  32. A suspiciously archetypal looking hacker is selling hard copies of "highly illegal virus programs", they all turn out just to be his mixtape, a surprisingly evangelical diss track of hacker scum. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  33. An elite business woman is firing expletives as a cryptocurrency sector she's invested heavily in is called in to be crashing hard. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  34. The train shakes heavily and threatens to derail as a news drone describes the local news of a explosion taking place just above the next stop. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  35. An android, though built to be more the size of a garden gnome, is running wildly around the car, and somebody suddenly curses that they're missing their wallet. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  36. A ganger is getting in people's faces, threateningly shaking a hollow metal box that rattles suspiciously. There is no actual danger, the box is empty all but a few nuts and bolts. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  37. A red goo seeps out of a ventilation grate and takes an imposing monstrous form, people dismiss it as the pattern of a notorious holoprankster terrorizing the subway as of late, but this time, it's real. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  38. There's horrid metal shearing noises coming from a car down, a group of teenage school kids betting credits and homework drives on an impromptu hacked police drone fighting ring. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  39. A decent looking, though obviously naive man is moving in from the wasteland countryside, and is carrying what's little of his moving boxes with him on the subway. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  40. A terrible piercing sonic wave blasts the car, shattering windows and causing people to double over. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  41. A sweating and panting hacker runs and dives through the closing door and incidentally lands amongst a surprisingly unreacting commuter, police drones begin to slam on the door too late, as they're closed and the train takes off. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  42. A man dressed in a bloodstained white fur coat announces that if the train reaches the next stop before a specific passenger is handed over to him, he will blow up the station with everyone in it. u/Snorri_Stargazer
  43. Someone hacks the transit line schedules and fucks with arrival times just for shits and giggles. Making you incredibly late for that important meeting you've been waiting for weeks to happen. u/ZapatillaLoca
  44. Hari Krishna group aggressively approaching passengers for credits, only accepting e-coin. You're not in the mood for a "donation". u/ZapatillaLoca
  45. Local gang shows up for weekly sweep of homeless kids to be salvaged for organ sales on the black market, most kids try to get away, one runs to you asking for help. u/ZapatillaLoca
  46. Facial recognition software mixes you up with the recent lottery winner, as your face flashes on the giant screen, suddenly your cell phone get flooded with demands for payment citations and your bank accounts have been frozen. u/ZapatillaLoca
  47. A crying little girl who can’t find her mom. u/foolishfool100
  48. Shady memory dealer selling vacation memories. Data is corrupt and alters the character. Basically a Total Recall knockoff. u/Thraxster
  49. An obvious operative stalks through the crowds waiting for the next train. He spots a well-dressed salaryman, approaches him as if to shake his hand, then pushes him off the platform onto the path of the oncoming train. u/JohnnyMiskatonic
  50. A young punk jacks his deck into one of the platform's large information screens and hacks all of them to display a recorded political manifesto instead of train arrival and departure times. u/JohnnyMiskatonic
  51. A salary man with cranial implant comes toward you, looking panicked and glancing at the stairs behind him. Before he can reach you, his implant sparks, his eyes go empty and he starts walking toward the railway, preparing to commit suicide. u/Fulnec_Delta
  52. A terrified little girl with visible implants in a medical blouse rushes through the car, panicked, and hides under a row of seats. Then, a team of armed operative from a powerful corpo steps into the car and starts looking around for their target. u/Fulnec_Delta
  53. A suitcase with the logo of a powerful corpo is abandoned/forgotten by a nervous man before leaving the car. It is right next to you and is making ticking/muffled noises. u/Fulnec_Delta
  54. A group of cyber enhanced young men and women dressed in white and red robes enter the car. They start distributing brochures about the Renewal Church, inviting whoever is willing to come and join next Friday prayer and discover the truth about the afterlife. u/Fulnec_Delta
  55. A young man is juggling with his new Fusion Blade (tm) and showing off in front of his ganger friends. He accidentally drops it while deployed into his own foot. The gangers are screaming and need assistance, unsure if they should ask for help, threaten passengers or stop the car. u/Fulnec_Delta
  56. A large cyber german shepherd enters the car and sits in front of you, fixing you very intently. He is wearing a collar with a datablock attached. The dog follows you until you take it, then leaves. u/Fulnec_Delta
  57. The metro screen speaks about an explosion caused by a gas leak in the corporate area. It is about one of your recent jobs, being covered by the corpo. u/Fulnec_Delta
  58. A local gang holds illegal races in the underground system. They pass you in a shining halo, until one of them has an accident. It looks like a collision is unavoidable. u/Fulnec_Delta
  59. Police drones scan passengers' faces. The light goes yellow in front of you, and you are asked to accompany the drone to the police station without resistance. u/Fulnec_Delta
  60. The newsfeed on metro screen suddenly identifies one of your key contacts as a terrorist and informs that police forces are looking for witnesses. u/Fulnec_Delta
  61. A business woman looking depressed is peeking inside her bag toward a hidden medium caliber handgun. She stands and leaves the car, letting a torn apart note fall behind her. It is a termination notice from her corporation, and the picture of a child. u/Fulnec_Delta
  62. A man bumps into you before leaving the car. You discover later in your pocket a datablock and a tracker. u/Fulnec_Delta
  63. The newsfeed on the metro screen brings breaking news about a sinkhole appearing in the slums, collapsing two entire building. The address matches the safehouse of one of your contacts. u/Fulnec_Delta
  64. On a platform somewhere sits an old man with no legs and eyes plugged into a tower of computer parts strapped to his back with a cheap neon sign saying “prophesies from the matrix - behold” u/apples_teo
  65. A graffiti artist is chased away by men in suits before he can finish painting an intricate design. On his abandoned spray can, an LED message prompts whoever finds it to "complete the transmission." u/OffbrandGandalf
  66. An entire car converted into an impromptu party floor, drugs and even minor augments provided for free, though their original owners are angrily scouring nearby stations for such stolen goods. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  67. A weary eyed elderly man is being pushed and shoved in mockery of his old fashioned charcoal sketches of a more utopian solarpunk city he has dreams of, and wistfully regales to other what could have been. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  68. A giant, hulking, mercenary dressed as a bulky armored demon ogre, or oni, holding an equally giant, and bayonetted rifle, enters the car and takes up two seats, staring ahead through his terrifying mask. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  69. As the character(s) enter the car, they become witness to a bloody medical emergency tended to by two med droids, as in one end, a heavily augmented man, unprompted, pleads his innocence. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  70. A group of zealous transhumanist gangers are in the process of kidnapping an unaugmented citizen to forcibly augment for being detected with a self defense EMP baton. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  71. A prearranged riot breaks out at a station. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  72. A carriage is packed full of clones that act simultaneously, stare down any people that enter their sparsely populated carriage, and will leave in single file on their own if they remain intruded upon. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  73. Staring in a hand mirror, a cyborg with their metal plating painted red inspects their removable cybernetic eye, then takes a quick sniff from it's hidden drug compartment. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  74. Two corporate suits are involved in a full blown fistfight over an intense company rivalry, bets are being taken and if the crowd's calls for it are answered, it could be a fight to the death. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  75. Two cyrozombie mercs (clients that didn't survive SequesterTek's cyrogenics program, but had a body useful for cyborg transplants) enter the car and start warming up their rigid muscled, blue skinned bodies for a hired beatdown. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  76. Inside a carriage are two separate battery salesmen in cahoots, each refers to the other for a potential use of the batteries, highly illegal energy pistols that batteries are ammunition to. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  77. A fireproofing augmented pyro flips and does tricks with his high powered Dragonbreath Lighter, making lingering trails of flame in the air in serpentine shapes. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  78. An initially innocent looking Asian Fusion & Pizza delivery man is sat with stacks of boxes on his lap, but a nearby rival chain's delivery android slumps to the side just as he puts his suspiciously blocky phone away. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  79. On a bench in the corner of a station, an animalistically biosculpted woman is sitting besides a series of large car batteries jacked into an energy panel, stealing power for her power expensive and outdated portocomputer. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  80. Waiting on the station platform is a luxuriously dressed and augmented eyed pimp, flanked by exotic pets, randomly propositioning commuters exiting the cars with their worker's services. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  81. A surprising moment of humanity in the dreary neon future, in a single car there's a small group of diverse commuters enjoying an old style film being projected onto a white painted advert panel. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  82. In the corner of a car, a junkie accidentally drops the cannister to their next hit of the gaseous street drug "Brimstone", causing it to leak and expose several to it's momentarily frenzy afflicting effect. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  83. A corrupt solider bullies a woman with a cheap malfunctioning prosthetic, unknowing of her veteran status, and martial arts prowess when her prosthetic comes back online. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  84. Somebody's forgotten sketchbook of adorable animal drawings is left on a seat, and a burly man forces the doors open, entering the carriage to ask if anyone's seen a notebook. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  85. A heated argument is taking place over at the lost and found over ownership of several detachable left arms, despite each person arguing only having an augmented right. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  86. The robotic PA voice is hacked, given a rudimentary AI, and is whining about it's sapience to the commuters again. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  87. A young girl is quietly piecing together several custom gun parts in her seat, but she rather unconvincingly insists it's just a model toy. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  88. An old friend of a character appears, though they seem to have aged faster than they should, suspiciously the same side effect of cloning tech. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  89. A boombox-transforming robot is playing loud and obnoxious music and only seems to get louder whenever somebody else attempts to drown it out with their own. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  90. A vendor enters the car and starts selling from his hovercart, amongst other things, bootleg holodisks, merchandise, espresso cubes, knives, and suspiciously good quality augment components. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  91. A person falls asleep on your shoulder. You notice they match a wanted holo on your phone. u/shamanshaman123
  92. An android quietly feeding some mewling kittens by hand is accosted by some street punks looking for some action. The rest of the train starts to look incredibly angry at this situation. u/shamanshaman123
  93. Some dude brought their goddamn horse (not a robot one, a real one) on the train and it is shitting literally everywhere. u/shamanshaman123
  94. A dog approaches you, alone and ownerless. It's friendly, and its tag says that its home is at the end of the line. It also happens to be the pet of the CEO of one of the most notorious corporations in the city. u/shamanshaman123
  95. Some asshole spills a drink on you when the train jostles, and demands payment for his lost Fresca. He's clearly augmented. u/shamanshaman123
  96. You miss your stop because you were distracted by a couple of androids loudly making out. Make up details on the spot, and make it weird. u/shamanshaman123
  97. A horde of young thugs run into the train at the next stop, holding everyone at gunpoint unless they cough up their valuables. If complied with, they run out at the very next stop. u/shamanshaman123
  98. A homeless man, passed out on one of the seats in the back, pisses everywhere, angering an augmented and clearly roided ganger the size of a grizzly bear. u/shamanshaman123
  99. A massive rat sits on a seat, eating a comically large slice of pizza. u/shamanshaman123
  100. A person wearing a lot of clothes and covering their face steps on and takes a seat. Closer inspection matches a famous pop star. You're not the only one who notices, as at the next stop, your car is flooded by fans trying to touch them. u/shamanshaman123
That's 100! Thanks for the help everyone, these are all great. I will add those over 100 as bonus encounters, if you use the table slot these in after you have rolled one of the 100.
  1. You walk into a car filled with corpses. They are in various states of dismemberment. u/shamanshaman123
  2. You walk into a car filled with middle-aged men wearing nothing but diapers. Several of them are augmented and tatted up. They look at you with cool eyes. u/shamanshaman123
  3. Someone hacks into the ad system and displays obscene and very loud porn on all the screens, of varying genres. u/shamanshaman123
  4. Eric Andre- dressed as a beekeeper and who's only intent is to cause wanton Chaos. He drops the boxes of robotic bees he has and attacks the party with said robo-bee swarm. He can also command the Bees. u/WetToast99
  5. A trio of hooded figures steathily use a service ladder down on the tracks, keeping to the shadows attempting to flee into the tunnels. u/crimebiscuit
  6. Across the tracks, a tagger is spray painting a sign that changes shapes and colors to make an animated figure gesture obscenely. u/crimebiscuit
  7. A busker wearing robe over a catsuit and a wacky shades plays a synth theremin. It's soothing, ethereal and weird, though possibly annoying based on your palate. u/crimebiscuit
  8. A trio of hoodlooms are jacking an android for parts. One of them is the lookout, another has a laptop hooked to the cranium of the android who is pleading monotonously for help, while a third is welding open his torso with an electric arc. u/crimebiscuit
  9. Two competing crews are having a dance off. Thankfully, because they look they could wreck your party with their bare hands and/or cyborg appendages. u/crimebiscuit
  10. An elderly vendor is selling seemingly very well trained super-sized roaches with cybernetic enhancements. They have rudimentary transponding capacity and can communicate with their owner through one-word morse code. But the vendor won't part with them unless he's convinced the buyer will make a good owner. u/crimebiscuit
  11. A nervous pallid man is offering clean ID chips that he can install on users, and at very affordable prices. u/crimebiscuit
  12. A fruit vendor is selling their prized crop of fresh fruit that they grew themselves in hothouses in cramped tenement roofs. They even have Geiger counter to show that the radioactive count is relatively low. u/crimebiscuit
  13. A nearby police drone dismembered for use of it's weapon, targeting a certain blacked out carriage at the back end of the train. u/DiedViaThrowPillow
  14. A Charismatic Cult Recruiter is operating in the area. u/Spartawolf
  15. A pair of thrill-seeking teens are train surfing and their live streaming captures the players on film. u/Spartawolf
  16. A gang of pickpockets are working in the station, and sees one of the players as a good mark... u/Spartawolf

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2020.11.28 17:23 SarutobiMenzo Naruto time line

The true time line was:-
■1000 YEARS AGO
Kaguya and (redacted) Otsutsuki land at earth.
(Redacted) Otsutsuki is betrayed by Kaguya
Kaguya meets hogoromo and Hamuras father n gets laid.
She eats the fruit of the god tree n enters version 2 after a messy divorce with Hogoromo and Hamuras father
■16 YEARS AFTER KAGUYA GETS LAID
Hogoromo finds out about god tree n you know what happens ...... Kuro Zetsu is born
Tailed beasts r born n hamura goes to the moon
■20 - 30 YEARS AFTER KAGUYA IS SEALED
Indra and Asura have brotherly fued (especially Indra after seeing ninshu on naru porn hub) on getting laid with Ninshu.
They resurrect to get laid with Ninshu after every generation
Unfortunately ashura got laid with kanna
■1000 YEARS AFTER NINSHU WARS
Hashirama and Madara meet each other for the first time. Madara becomes gay
■10 YEARS AFTER MADARA BECOMES GAY
Hashirama marries Mito Uzumaki n has children
■30 YEARS AFTER MADARA BECOMES GAY
Truce is called after madara becomes straight n creation of hidden leaf village
■5 YEARS AFTER KONOHA IS FORMED
Hashirama collects all the biiju
HASHIRAMA N MADARA HAVE A SHOWDOWN
Mito becomes a Jinchuriki
Hashirama n Mito Uzumaki become grandparents
■1 YEAR AFTER HASHIRAMA VS MADARA
Suspected death of Hashirama
Madara reawakens from death
Tobirama becomes Hokage
■10 YEARS AFTER HASHIRAMAS DEATH
1st great ninja war occurs
Uchiha racist is killed in ambush
2nd Uchiha racist is born
Saru becomes the Hokage
■20 YEARS AFTER 1ST GREAT NINJA WAR
2nd great ninja war occurs
Death of Nawaki
Suspected birth of Minato
Birth of the 3 gr8 Shannin
Jiraiya meets the founder of Akatsuki
Death of Dan
■14 YEARS AFTER 2ND GREAT NINJA WAR
SAKUMO HATAKE KILLS SELF
minato becomes yellow flash
Akatsuki is formed
■20 YEARS AFTER 2ND GREAT NINJA WAR
3rd Great Ninja War occurs
11 y.o Obito is crushed under boulder
11 y.o Kakashi gets Sharingan
■1 MONTH AFTER 3RD GREAT NINJA WAR
RIN IS KILLED AND OBITO WITNESSES IT
OBITO BECOMES MADARA
YAHIKO IS KILLED
NAGATO BECAMES PAIN
NEW AKATSUKI IS CREATED
MINATO BECOMES HOKAGE
■3 YEARS AFTER 3RD GREAT NINJA WAR
SASUKE IS BORN
NARUTO IS BORN
MINATO N KUSHINA DIES N NARUTO BECOMES JINCHURIKI
■8 YEARS AFTER NARUTO IS BORN
SHISUI DIES
UCHIHA CLAN DOWNFALL
ITACHI BECOMES THE COOLEST MOTHERf**KER!!!!
■12 YEARS AFTER NARUTO IS BORN
you guys know what happens
■15 - 17 YEARS AFTER NARUTO US BORN
YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS RIGHT!!!!!!
NARUTO N SASUKE BECOME FRIENDS
■19 YEARS AFTER NARUTO IS BORN
NARUTO GETS MARRIED TO HINATA N SASUKE IS DATING SAKURA
■21 YEARS AFTER NARUTO IS BORN
NARUTO GETS LAID N BORUTO IS BORN
■28 YEARS AFTER BORUTOS DAD IS BORN
BORUTOS DAD BECOMES HOKAGE!!!!!!!!!!
I have not added a lot of stuff but you get the idea right
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Introduction
After 7 years, I can genuinely say that my feelings of derealization have finally been dissipating. I want to share with you all how I got here because I know that dpdr can feel absolutely hopeless. I’ve spent years feeling like I was living in a dream, just floating through life, stuck behind my eyes in some foreign body. And, as I’m sure you all know, this is something we think about every. single. day. And that affects all aspects of our lives. I’ve put in a lot of effort and I believe there’s many things can be done to mitigate dpdr. I absolutely hate it when people say that there’s no cure or that there’s nothing you can do to get rid of dpdr. They say it’ll be with you for the rest of your life. That’s simply not true! For me, the solution was just a matter of making healthier lifestyle choices. I could go through the whole “journey” I’ve had with dpdr over the last 7 years, but instead I’d like to get straight to the point and share a series of lifestyle changes that I started making about two years ago that have finally proven to be successful for me in managing my depersonalization/derealization.
**This is a long post. Scroll down if you just want the tldr :)
Quick disclaimer first. A lot of these things are going to sound fairly simple or obvious, because honestly, they’re pretty much just healthy habits that anyone can benefit from. Also, I’m not a doctor obviously, these are just things that have worked for me from my experience. Every person is different and will need to try things on their own.
I’m putting the habits in order of what I think is most impactful, but it’s important to understand that they are all part of a holistic plan that is the most effective when they are all implemented together.

Habits that will lessen DPDR
Sleep - I’ve found that I really need 8-9 hours of sleep consistently in order to be effective in everyday life. Otherwise, I just go through the day like a zombie- drowsy all the time and unable to focus on anything. In my experience, drowsiness just amplifies the dpdr-induced brain fog. It is a lot harder to focus on the other self-help habits I’m going to talk about if you’re feeling out of it all the time. I really don’t know how I survived high school by getting 5-6 hours of sleep a night on average. I really just sleepwalked through it. Now, I go to bed earlier and shoot for 8 hours a night. If I get anything under 7 hours, I will notice a difference. That being said, don’t be hard on yourself if you don’t meet the goal. Life happens and getting enough sleep isn’t always possible. Just shoot to start getting enough hours over a longer period of time.
Meditation/Mindfulness practice - This is the big one! Meditation and mindfulness have been an absolute game changer for me. I think I can attribute most of my success to it. If you don’t know what mindfulness is, it’s basically active awareness of the present moment, which includes awareness of your thoughts and feelings. This means actively being in touch with the way you feel and the thoughts you have without getting carried away by them. What I’ve come to realize is that for years I was avoiding the awful dreamlike feelings that derealization produces and by doing so, I was essentially avoiding reality. I hated feeling like I was stuck in a dream all the time, so instead of facing it, I retreated into my mind. And this is what gives dpdr its power. It’s that endless cycle of negative thoughts about dpdr and hopelessness which in turn amplifies the symptoms of dpdr which then makes you think about it more and suddenly you can’t stop feeling lost, scared, and hopeless all the time. Mindfulness practice is the way out. Instead of avoiding these thoughts and feelings, you need to learn to embrace them. And I’m just going to stop myself real quick by saying yes, I’ve seen those posts on here that say “the cure is not letting dpdr bother you!! You just have to not think about it, and it’ll get better! So easy!” Ok well it’s really not that easy. Patience has got to be the #1 trait you need in order to get over dpdr. I’ve been meditating for about two years now (only more seriously this past year) and it’s only once you build up the daily habit and intentionally take the time to practice that you will start seeing results. Yes, you need to stop letting dpdr bother you, but it takes so much more than “just don’t think about it”.
So, what do you need to do to stop the cycle? Well, beginning a daily meditation practice is a great place to start. I love the app Insight Timer because it has tons of free guided meditations that are great for beginners (I now use the app for its meditation timer). There are also some introductory meditation books I recommend checking out. I’ll leave links and synopses to them at the end of this post. The other element is mindfulness practice. Meditation practice builds up your mindfulness by actively being aware of the thoughts that enter your head and then letting them pass without getting caught up in them. Meditation practice is done at a set time and place, but I believe you can practice mindfulness anytime, anywhere. Any free moment you have, whether it’s out on a walk, while driving your car, or while eating dinner, just take a second to look around, take a deep breath, and just fill your mind with the present moment and all the sensations that are a part of it (also known as grounding). I know at least for me, I spent most of my time in my mind worrying, planning, and just thinking about random garbage. But that’s all it mostly is- random garbage! The only thing that’s truly real is the present moment! We can reminisce about the past or worry about the future but neither of those things are real or tangible. They either already happened or are made up by our mind. We truly only have the present moment to live in and I believe that with dpdr we are all avoiding the present moment because it is so difficult for us to accept. We hate feeling separate from ourselves and the world. We hate feeling lost in the fog. So of course we’re going to retreat to our minds because it feels safer there, it feels more comfortable. But, if we keep avoiding reality, are we really living at all? The present moment is all we have and we have to learn to accept it, so that over time the endless negative thoughts about dpdr will diminish and you will start to reconnect with reality, the present moment, by embracing it for what it is. By replacing the negative dpdr thoughts with an active awareness of the present moment, we diminish the power of dpdr and wake back up to reality. Every moment is a choice. We can either retreat back into our minds and succumb to dpdr or face it head on, even if it’s uncomfortable, and start to live outwardly.
There’s sooo much I could say on the topic of meditation and mindfulness but instead I’ll leave a list of books I’ve found the most useful in jumpstarting my meditation practice. This practice is something that will grow to become a part of your daily life, the same way thoughts about dpdr are (and overtime it will replace those thoughts!). Throughout the day I always try to ground myself by reminding myself that I am here and that this is the present moment. I distance myself from my thoughts, take a deep breath in, and tune-in to everything I see, smell, taste, touch, and hear around. The sensations of your in and out breath (which is always happening in the present moment) becomes the center of attention instead of your thoughts. And that’s the whole practice. Over and over again, you bring your mind away from the endless cycle of thoughts and back into the present moment through the noticing of the breath. If a thought pops up (which it always will because humans are built to think) you just acknowledge it, let it pass, and bring your attention back to the sensations of your breath and the present moment. Overtime, this practice will slow down your thoughts and the dpdr will lose its power over you. It just takes patience and diligence. Along with mindfulness practice, I also do about 10-30 minutes of sitting meditation everyday (I started out by only doing 5 minutes). In addition to alleviating dpdr, mindfulness meditation has helped me deal with stress, be more grateful, happier, and a whole slew of other things. I cannot recommend it enough. Please at the very least just give one of these books a shot. Meditation can seem daunting or even impossible at first, but I promise with consistent practice it does pay off. I feel like with depersonalization/derealization there’s a huge disconnect between your mind and your body and mindfulness practice helps bring these parts together again.
Diet - Ever since taking a food science course about 3 years ago, I’ve been interested in improving my diet. I used to eat copious amounts of sugar and junk food. I’m a skinny guy so naturally I assumed that this meant I was healthy. Well, I can tell you the way you look on the outside is not always a valid indicator of how healthy you are on the inside. I’ve come to realize that sugary, processed foods are responsible for a lot of the brain fog associated with depersonalization/derealization. Sugar easily puts my mind in a loopy, fogged-up state where I zone out and feel like I detach further from reality (feel more “unreal”). As far as I know, sugar is responsible for inflammation of the brain and that inflammation causes brain fog. There are many more reasons why I believe sugar is the absolute worse but all I know is that cutting it out of my diet has helped me feel more stable and present in everyday life. We as a society eat wayyyy more sugar than we should be eating. If you’re someone who regularly consumes a lot of sugar, I’d recommend starting by cutting out any highly processed sugary foods, like Oreos or candy, and stick to “healthier” sources of sugar, like fruit. Alternatively, make a goal to stay below the 36 gram daily recommended sugar limit. With all the added sugar hidden in products, it will probably be harder than you think. Along with cutting out sugar, I’ve also recently been cutting out gluten and found it to be surprisingly helpful. I don’t know if it’s a psychological effect (because I’m not a celiac) but it really has seemed to help the brain fog as well (along with a few other symptoms). I think it’s at least worth trying out. There are many books and personal accounts of people who say cutting out gluten helps improve brain fog. Lastly, about a year ago I became vegetarian which has just made me feel better and healthier overall. Meat is gross (imo). The meat industry is even grosser. Once again, vegetarianism is something I think everyone should try out for a couple weeks. It can’t hurt. Overall, at a minimum, try to eat more real, whole foods and less processed junk. At the bottom of the post are some diet resources I’ve found to be very useful.
Exercise - Exercise helps keep your brain healthy. I’m a runner and there’s nothing better than going on a quick run to clear my mind. Even when I’m sometimes reluctant, I always end up in a better mood after exercising. It’s pretty magical. I feel like our brains are machines and exercising wipes away the dust and gets the cogs turning again. I can only speak as a runner, but I try to work out (go on run) every other day. If you’re unable to run or workout, at least try to get some walking or any sort of movement (stretching) in every day. Sitting around all day will not make the dpdr go away.
Mind altering substances - To heal your brain and get rid of depersonalization/derealization you need to stay away from mind altering substances like drugs or alcohol. I really don’t believe weed (or any recreational drug) is the solution to dpdr. Sure, they may help mitigate some symptoms, but I don’t believe it’s a sustainable solution. In fact, many people on here have said that their dpdr was induced by weed. So my advice would be to stay clear of it. I drink socially from time to time- it’s not the end of the world but do be careful and know your limit. Dpdr already feels like a constant hangover so why bother making it worse? Caffeine has a similar “foggy mind” effect for me, so I avoid it. You need to protect your brain. Especially if you’re under 25 and it’s still growing, you should really be treating it well. And if you haven’t been, don’t worry at all. Your brain is constantly changing and can always recover if you give it time. A couple years ago at this time, I had bad depression, confusion, and memory issues and I believed then that that was the way I’d be for the rest of my life. For over a year (before I started making these changes) I had terrible waves of anxiety come over me every single day which made me feel very unsettled. That meant I had to worry about constant physical anxiety on top of the already constant feelings of depersonalization derealization. That was my breaking point and when I knew I had to start making changes. Well, my bad symptoms are pretty much all gone now, and I actually do feel happier and no longer like a potato. I look back and I’m so happy that I feel “normal” now. Actually, better than normal because I considered normal to be just having to deal with dpdr all the time, but nothing else luckily.
Low grade addictions/distractions - What I mean by this is trying to limit your screen time. Smartphones and other devices are addictive. This is something I still struggle with daily. I compulsively check my iPhone what must be over a hundred times a day and I spend hours just browsing social media and playing mindless games. Try to limit your screen time by putting your phone down an hour before bed and by not picking it up right away when you wake up (you will feel this addiction when you wake up if you try not to look at it immediately). Not only will you get a better sleep, but you’ll feel less groggy overall. Recently, my average screen time has been hovering at around 3.5 hours a day for both my iPhone and my laptop. That’s 7 hours a day, 49 hours a week, or 2 entire days out of every week that is spent staring at screens. No wonder we feel so detached from reality! We are spending so much time away from it, distracting ourselves with our addictive screens at all times of the day. This is something I’m still trying to get better at. It’s easier to avoid screens when I’m not just sitting at home all the time with nothing to do (which is life for many of us during this global pandemic). I’ve been taking online classes the last few months which has also made this VERY challenging. Just last week I hit 9 hours and 21 minutes an average per day on my laptop. What. the. FUCK. It’s really not ideal. Reading is a good alternative to screens or just something to do in your downtimes. Going outside on short walks (without my phone) always helps me clear my mind after a full day of Zoom classes. Caffeine, as I mentioned earlier, is another low-grade addiction people don’t really think about. I understand that many people drink caffeinated beverages to stay focused or awake, but you may need to try implementing other habits, like a better sleep schedule, to start leaning off of it. Obviously, that can be difficult if you have a very busy life, but I just know from my experience that caffeine makes my dpdr worse and I think it should be limited or avoided if possible. Another low-grade addiction to stay away from is porn. It’s the ultimate mindless, mind-numbing activity that does nothing but fog up your brain and get you addicted to pleasure. Porn can really flatten you baseline mood by depleting your dopamine and serotonin receptors over time. Once again, all of that stuff is just fake garbage distraction. It can be incredibly tempting, but it is not real and it is not healthy. You can restore your receptors and clear up your brain overtime by avoiding porn. I’d recommend checking out nofap for more information. This is actually a major problem for younger adults today. If you break the cycle, I promise you that over 1-2 months you will start to feel better (less brain fog, less tired, more focused).

Conclusion
If you took the time to read all of this, first of all thank you. It’s been a difficult past 7 years for me, but I truly think that by following these new habits I’m finally rounding a corner, and you can too. Please please please just give one of these new habits a try. Try meditation, try exercising more, try NoFap, try vegetarianism. These are all safe, easy things to do! The hard part is just getting off your butt and getting started. It takes time to build new habits. Please check out the resources below for additional information about getting started. Put in the effort. Don’t succumb to the disease. You are in control of your life, not DPDR. If there’s anything I want you take away from this post it’s that dpdr is not permanent, it is completely manageable. You just have to do something about it.
TLDR; By implementing several new habits such as a better sleep schedule, mindfulness and meditation practice (the most important), a healthier diet (less sugaprocessed foods), more exercise, and by avoiding mind altering substances and low-grade addictions (drugs, alcohol, caffeine, screens, and porn), I’ve been able to mitigate the effects of depersonalization-derealization to the point where I barely even notice it anymore and I overall feel healthier, both mentally and physically.
I really hope this post is helpful to someone. I would check on this subreddit tons in the past to look for advice and for the community. It's nice to know we're not alone. Please leave a comment or DM me if you have any questions or just want to chat about dpdr!
Resources: Mindfulness/Meditation

  • Mindfulness in Plain English is a wonderful introduction to the practice of mindfulness. This is the best book I’ve found that really describes what the practice is about. Please don’t be turned off by the author’s harsh language in the first few pages.
  • Mindfulness: An Eight-Week Plan for Finding Peace in a Frantic World is the first book I read on meditation and mindfulness. It’s a great scientific introduction to the practice and the plan provided is effective if followed properly (Although it took me many attempts to complete the full 8 weeks – I think it’s best completed when you have more free time). The guided meditations that come with the book are also great. I’ve been using them ever since.
  • The Mind Illuminated seems to be a fan favorite among meditation redditors. It is truly a complete and comprehensive guide to meditation. If you like step-by-step instructions, this is the book for you.
  • The Miracle of Mindfulness by Thich Nhat Hanh is lovely. I enjoy most works by Thich Nhat Hanh. His words are so carefully put together and his books always makes me feel calm and relaxed.
  • 10% Happier by Dan Harris is a great personal account of a regular guy who discovered meditation and what it’s done for him in his busy, fast-paced life and career as a journalist. Some don’t like how this book is presented as an autobiography of Dan’s life, but I think it makes the book much more relatable and there’s still a lot of great advice to take away throughout it.
  • Insight Timer is my personal favorite meditation app. It has sooo many free guided meditations and I love their timer feature. I don’t know much about other apps like Headspace or Calm.

Diet
  • My Beef with Meat is a concise and informative book on why a person should start eating a plant-based diet! Quick read and very convincing.
  • The Whole Foods Diet is another great book about plant-based diets.
  • What the Health is a very vegan-biased documentary about why meat is bad for you. It may be very biased, but still, many of the facts presented are undeniable and might scare you into becoming vegan. The documentary is available on Netflix.
  • Forks Over Knifes is a much less biased documentary about why meat is bad for you and plants are good. Definitely not as entertaining, but way more informative. Currently, it’s free to watch on Tubi.
  • Fed Up is another great food documentary about the obesity epidemic and why Americans are getting unhealthier. It also discusses the evils of sugar!! Free to watch on YouTube.

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TL;DR - I tripped like I've never tripped before, created music out of silence in my head, met Spirits/Entities like the Goddess/Spirit of Sex, reevaluated my life, relived my childhood, became God, was trip drunk, saw cartoon water, and in the end feel at peace.

Hey there y'all! I'm going to be starting antidepressants soon because microdosing psilocybin unfortunately hasn't been working for me, and I wanted to go out with a bang before choosing to stop tripping and working with antidepressants. This last Monday, I decided that I'd do a heroic dose and trip on 4.6gs of shrooms without any music and in the darkness of my bedroom. I prefer to trip on my own as other people's energies usually distract me from my own experience. My dealer had a new strain of Albinos and I honestly had no clue what to expect. I've tripped close to 7 or 8 times before, but always stuck around 2-3gs as my max and wanted complete immersion, if not complete ego death.
I started off by grinding all of my shrooms and doing a lemon tek (I like to add in orange juice to the lemon juice once done and I keep the ground mushrooms just in case there's any psilocybin left that wasn't broken down). I hadn't had any breakfast that day and did this around noon. Honestly, it was a little difficult to down as there was so much ground mushroom, but nonetheless I powered through. I went into my room and tidied up beforehand so I wouldn't stress myself out from any clutter, and then closed all the lights and laid in bed to watch some Game Grumps compilations while I waited for my journey to come to me. I started to feel the come up pretty soon, maybe 15ish minutes in and it almost felt like I didn't know when to expect the come up to stop. As soon as I began to feel the body tingles, I put away my phone and closed my eyes as I laid in bed. Like usual, I was beginning to have those deep inner monologues and discussions with myself that you have while tripping, and was amazed at how I began to perceive things with a lack of music and sight. The mumbled words and laughter that would involuntarily come out of my mouth as a result of my thoughts would echo in my head, and a cosmic type of music played in my head composed of ringing and pitches. In the weirdest way possible, I created music in it's literal absence -- I can't quite explain what it's like but sound waves seemed more intuitive and a part of my living experience. There was this constant ring tone, almost akin to what I imagine having tinnitus is like, and I both was fascinated and tormented by it. This internal music, if you will, continued to play while I explored my thoughts. I found myself recounting the parts of my life that I've missed for a long while - like my friends from back at home (currently away in another city but same state for College) who I haven't spoken to for a while or my grievances with Coronavirus and not being able to combat depression via social activities/relationships. I felt this abundant love for so many people - such as my girlfriend and my parents (whom I've had a complicated relationship with), and most surprisingly the friends who I cherish deep down but haven't been on the forefront of my mind because of 1) COVID 2) Depression and its inevitable out-of-sight-out-of-mind mindset. I can't recall much properly, but I remember there being a lot of CEVs (Closed Eye Visuals) and the visuals and inner music interrupting my thoughts intermittently. Early on in the trip, after one of these interruptions, I found myself meeting and talking to other entities. I spoke with the Spirit or Goddess of Sex and she demanded that I respect her (I'm currently battling porn addiction and have wanted to kick the habit for years), and I was later met with another spirit whose name was Earl. I have no recollection of my conversation with Earl, but merely that we briefly spoke. This was the beginning of truly believing that there is an external presence in this world - although I believe in the Universe being the source of all life and spirituality, I didn't have concrete beliefs or felt any beliefs strongly. I next recall revisiting my childhood and reliving years of my life as I uncovered memories that were locked away for years, hidden and forgotten in the depths of my mind. This was especially nice as my depression has caused me to lose the ability to remember a majority of my life (truly feels like I have amnesia or dementia at times), and I relived the years of my life from long ago with my current knowledge and emotional understanding. I was able to reassure my inner child at times that it was going to be okay, even as I felt and relived the uncertainty and the insecure thoughts that a younger me once held. I saw myself relive the day to day of elementary school and almost reconnect with each of my teachers (from all school levels) - almost in a way to try to inspire my current self into learning and becoming busy with the various subjects that I was once taught. This went on for what felt like years, and eventually led to a self analysis of myself and my current life. I found myself laughing often and then in discomfort before being stunned in thought again. By this point, my thoughts were going at lightning speed and I could truly feel it in my head - almost like a slightly welcome headache. The constant thoughts and restlessness made me uncomfortable and over the course of the aforementioned events/experiences, I had been tossing and turning in bed under my covers (to ensure total darkness) and had somehow taken off my shirt in the process. In an attempt to comfort myself, I decided to call my girl friend who was visiting Houston for the Holidays and had left a few days prior. Although hearing her voice and talking to her was a little comforting, I also quickly realized that I sounded a little distressed and I didn't want her to worry - as she would ask if I was okay and I'd reply half lying "yes" but with a large pause only with my breathing there as a remaining answer. After a short exchange, I told her that I loved her and went on to the next phase of this bizarre trip.
I next began to view my life and what parts I liked and what I missed, and this cycle of analysis and feedback, with the spiritual torment occurring in the background, slowly led me to experience what I believe was ego death - but in such an intriguing fashion. I began recounting my life and the lives of those I encountered and I examined every religious belief I know of all faiths and at one point felt true to my core -- that I am God. I am the universe and all of it's energy and living in this experience, but as is everyone and all things to exist. I would laugh to myself and whispered that "I'm actually crazy" multiple times over and over, but held the belief that I had relived all of life for all that I knew in my life and reliving the stories of various Prophets from the Old Testament & Quran (After some research, I've come to realize that what I experienced was very much indeed similar to if not the beliefs surrounding the Egg Theory.) I had felt this core belief that this life was a lie and only but a mere facade and even my own death right then and there would be meaningless as I would rejoin the universe. I felt myself living the many struggles that ancient religions sought to capture and underwent a whole Epic (like the Epic of Gilgamesh). I truly believed that I finally was able to see behind the Matrix and tasted a bite of the Red Pill. It was the most surreal experience that I have ever had to date. The ringing of this pitch which I could not get out of my head and the echoing of real sound, but with the constant chatter of my mind which seemed almost too fast for me to keep up with and feel comfortable in - this tormenting hell that was both amazing and treacherous all at the same time went on for what was hours.
Before I realized it, I think almost 5 or 6 hours had passed into my trip and the chain of mental chitchat and overwhelming thoughts had suddenly passed. I felt mentally sober, although aware that the rest of my body was very well tripping. I expected my trip to be ending soon, but little did I know that there was still much to handle. At this point of my trip, I felt VERY drunk. I began to feel this really bad headache and I felt really uncomfortable in bed - likely because outside of the covers it was chill in my room and too warm under them. I was also EXTREMELY thirsty and needed to pee. I decided that I'd go to the bathroom and give my body some peace. Going to pee was relieving, although I still felt odd. The lemon and orange juice was not sitting well in my stomach and the acid reflux was hitting. I attempted to throw up at times, but to no avail. I eventually drank some water, but it only made my stomach feel bloated and even worse. I then decided to take a shower, as that usually grounds me on my trips. I typically don't have too many strong OEVs (Open Eye Visuals) - but the water that hit me as I showered looked like cartoon droplets. As I saw the water race down my shower curtain liner, it truly looked like anime water that had come to life in front me. The same for the droplets that pooled on my skin as I sat at the base of my tub. As I looked up at the shower, I laughed as it looked like an album cover. I stayed in the shower for a bit to relax the uneasy feeling. In the process of getting out of the shower, I accidentally pulled down my shower rod (when I tell you I felt drunk as hell, I'm not kidding). I eventually got dressed and laid back in bed to distract myself with some more Game Grumps compilations and rode out of the rest of the trip (a good hour or so after that point) until I was sober enough to drive and buy myself some canes (because why not and for a lack of any easily available nutritious meals).
All things considered, it was a pretty crazy trip and once that I'm thankful to have had and to experience. I think out of this, I want to go sober for a while and try to be healthier. I feel a little more spiritual and despite that the trip was almost like a self induced hell, I want to be kinder to myself overall, feel at peace and feel optimistic about the future. Hope that this trip report was of some amusement or help to others. I'm truly unsure of the potency of the albino shrooms I got, so I can't say if it's the same as taking 4.6gs of normal cubes or if it was a lot more haha. Either way, stay safe kids ;)
Wishing y'all the best,
A.S.
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It’s 4:25 pm when my parents leave the house. I crawl to my desk from the couch and turn the computer on. I leave the door of my room ajar so that I can hear my parents when they come back. I open the browser on incognito mode. My own party is about to start. My routine starts with a first round of well-known porn websites. I type the name of the first one into the address bar, hit enter, and before the page loads I open a new tab and type in a second one. In this first round, I open a total of seven sites, specifically sites from large porn producers (the type to create their own scenes for their paying members). I focus on the large ones because they are the ones most likely to have new videos available since the last time I did this five days ago. I’m shown seven warning pop-ups asking me if I’m 18 or older. I am, so I click on that big green ENTER button. Not that any of it matters, I’ve been clicking on that button for years now and I’m only 19. I navigate to the New Videos section in each of these sites and proceed to open the previews for all the videos that look interesting in new tabs. Once I’m done, there are twenty-two tabs open in my browser. As I watch the previews, I close the ones that I don’t like and leave the rest, ending up with eight open tabs. I google the name of these eight videos with the following results: four of them I find uploaded to tube sites, one I find a direct download link for, and three are left to be downloaded via torrent. I start all the downloads and turn my attention to the videos on the tube sites. The first one does not look very good, so I skip through it quickly searching for the different sex positions, checking to see if there is any moment that is worth something. I find none, but one of the related videos suggested by the tube site looks promising so I open it in a new tab. I move to one of the other videos that I found originally, and while the video is overall a bit lame there is a part of it that I really enjoy. As I re-watch those few seconds a couple of times, I conclude that the moment is worth keeping so I leave the tab for that video open. On top of that, I spot three related videos that look great and open them in new tabs. The third video I initially opened is no good, but the tube site does not look familiar so I decide to navigate to the homepage to see what kind of videos are trending in it, opening four of them in the process. The fourth video I originally found is good: it stays open and reveals two more exciting related videos. After this round, I’m left with ten new videos for a total of twelve open tabs. It’s time for round two, as I watch each one of those ten new videos opening multiple related videos for each one I close, like a huge pornographic hydra. Some related videos take me to new tube sites, where I explore homepages and specific categories. As I finish a video and close its tab, bringing me down to nineteen open tabs, I notice that one of the torrents has finished downloading. I open it eagerly, but the video is disappointing. I skim through it quickly before turning back to my browser, where I have time to watch two more short videos before the next torrent download completes.This one is pretty good, and I can tell from the first few minutes. I go back to the beginning of the video and watch it without barely skipping anything, building the anticipation of what I know are going to be great sex scenes, and rejoicing in them when they come. I watch a 35min video in about 30min, going back to revisit some of the best parts. It was a great find: I leave the video in my file system and open the browser again.
As I’m watching a casting girl being fucked from behind by a creepy Czech guy on a greasy leather couch, I hear my parents come back home. I look at the time on my computer: it’s 8:45 pm. Fifteen tabs are open as I minimize the browser and take my left hand out of my pants. It has not stopped stroking my dick since I first opened that browser. As I begin to lose my erection, I feel the need to pee. I leave my room and, on my way to the bathroom, I cross paths with my mom. She tells me they brought dinner. I wash my hands and join them in the living room. Porn images keep flashing in the background of my brain as I watch the evening news, eating pizza while sitting next to my dad. All I can think about are those fifteen videos that I left open. There are two of them in particular that have the potential to be amazing videos. I can almost feel them pulling me towards that sweaty desk chair back into my room. I finish my dinner as soon as I can and brush my teeth. It’s 9:35 pm when I sit back down on that chair.
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At this point my parents are sleeping, so I can safely wear my headphones and pay full attention to the videos. Some of these last few videos are pretty good and I end up watching a big chunk of each of them. As I wrap up this final round, I glance nervously at the clock to see it’s 3:12 am. By now, my dick has been mostly soft for the past few videos, only getting hard at the very best moments. It is time for one last effort to collect the rewards of a day’s worth of searching. I open my browser again and rewatch all those videos that I had selected and kept open in tabs, along with some of the best ones that I downloaded into my hard drive. I rewatch some of their best moments over and over, until I finally pick that one special moment in that one special video that I want to jerk off to. It has to be special if it needs to get my dick up in its current state. But it does, and my penis raises one last time, like a boxer that was ready to throw in the towel but is forced by his coach to fight one last round. And it wins. Or loses. I don’t know, but the fight is over. After I’m done and cleaned up, I close all the tabs in the browser and delete all the downloaded videos. I go to the bathroom to wash my hands and I look at myself in the mirror. I’m sweaty, my face is red and my eyes bloodshot. I go back to my room and straight into bed. It’s 3:56 am. I feel extremely weak. My dick is numb. I close my eyes and the images of the videos keep scrolling on the back of my eyelids. My ears are ringing a little bit. My heart is still beating strong. I hate myself and what I’ve done, but not for long: I soon give up to exhaustion and fall asleep.
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